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exams are OVER!

2008-06-25T23:06:00.005+08:00

yesyes! it's true! exams are finally OVER! ^^ super super happy. started celebrating ytd after econs. i think it's like the paper with the most hope? i hope! HAHA!

so, kicked off the celebrations with the long awaited NARNIA: PRINCE CASPIAN with jojo. :D somehow ytd seemed like a bestfren day. cos everyone went home together with plans to meet up with bestfrens. haha! here's the poster for the movie. caspian's the main calefare. (how do you even spell it?!) HAHAHA!

and seriously, king peter (below) is super hot! :D omgomg hot. (like arashi hot!) jo doesn't agree though. thinks that caspian (the one above) is cuter. no lah! :D and do u know willian moseley aka peter is only 21? how desirable. he shd be on the bachelor. HAHAHA!

we walked arnd bugis street after and i bought a tee. grins! :D and we sourced for corde and andre's present! update on sunday yah. and i saw this gorgeous magazine called tact. so tempted to buy ): this month's mag was FULLY on matsumoto jun! melts. how cute is he! pity the mag costs $20.60. )': had to part with it. sighhs!

went to cel's house tdy for a day of chilling. woke up late and reached her house at like 1230. hurhur. so anyway, we waited for lina to come home from school thn went down for a swim. :D after swim it was the favourite maggi mee lunch! too bad bins wasn't arnd to cook for us ): we still felt hungry after that so walked out to central to get a bubble tea drink and some snacks. no shilin or like snacks though ): anyway we were kinda satisfied with the bubble tea. :D walked around thn stopped for quite awhile at ts watching sniplets of L, Change the world. the deathnote onee. it was so addictive cel bought it home! so we spent about 2 hrs watching that. highly exciting :D dinner was spaghetti cooked by cel's mom. watched ouran high while eating!

AND, her mom invited me to go cycling tmr! :D and yeah, im gg. grins. seriously, these few days are rather eventful ah! so anyway, i thought picnic would be a good idea! and cel added on the cheesecake part. THUS, we ran out at 8pm to central to get ingredients and settled down to bake cheesecake. had to leave cel alone to bake at 930 ): and now, she says it's baking! YAY! gna report to her house tmr morning for a cheesecake breakfast. omgg! totally exciting laa. THIS IS THE LIFE! for now. :D

GLEE

2008-06-22T22:33:00.006+08:00

omgomgomg!
went to grandmother's house tdy. and got the surprise of my life! OW ZHIYIN is back! ^^ didn't even tell me beforehand la. i practically jumped and EH super embarrassingly. omg. you have no idea how much i miss you la. although it's only 4 mths. ): and after this break, it's another 6 mths before i'll see you again. SIGHS. that's why i hate growing up.

he's like the only 'brother' that i ever had? cos we aren't siblings and i guess he's the closest i'll ever get to having a brother. hahaha. growing up with him was fun. he doesn't really care whether i'm short or stupid cos we kinda grew up over the years and had our ups and downs all the same. the word family explains it all. :D and im super proud of him la. being the high profile kind all through school days, being one of the smartest in the family and his ns stuffs? he's still the best!

but anyway, he became whiter! not as manly alr lah! somehow, you went to australia but got whiter? and i thought australia was fully meant for tanning. HMMS. apparently not ahh. hahaha. can't wait to have a meet up session soon. not grandmother's house dinner kinda thing la. like treeaat (!) and a belated party/gathering! :D many many photos coming up soon i can predict. and somehow my glum and depressed mood has changed for the better. he was trying to be nice just now cos i was trying to study climate and biomes and he was watching jurassic park- the lost world. so he muted the tv. and for awhile i was wondering why the commercial didn't have any sound. as in i thought it was like some new commercial technique or smth. HAHA! im as retarded as usual lahh. funniest part was when this girl was like trying to crawl out and the dinosaur stuck its head in! like next to the girl la! totally shocked and we just screamed then burst out laughing! HAHAHA!

having you back is like the best thing that happened all june hols. (apart from the whole arashi craze yesyes!) thank goodness you're back. :D so looking forward to the next 5 weeks then! except the part where i get my results? but i feel much better now that you're back. :D huggs!

sick and tired

2008-06-21T15:05:00.005+08:00

what could i be sick and tired of? studying of course. last few days are like the most intense. ):

novena tdy finally after 3 weeks of mia-ing :D
feels so much better to be 'back'
totally passed up on the chance to go shopping! mom went to mango after novena. and i had to come home to study ):

okay. so i got bored with that blogskin. this one just rocks. :D don't you think the polaroids are simply pretty? boredom drives me to desperation.

so here's next week's plan.
mon: geog paper
tues: econs paper + NARNIA with jo and corde! (okay. i know im like slow. exams okay!)
wed: swimming with cel
thurs: undecided yet
fri: babes outing!

so my week is packed full from monday to friday. all except thurs which i might dedicate to arashi. since one love comes out then. :D and econs tuition of course with my favourite tuition buddy! hahha.

jpop!

2008-06-19T01:11:00.006+08:00

okay. so studying's been taking up like most of my life. haha :D met cel and qimin for lunch at bugis. my favourite place and my favourite people. HAHA! almond tea was fantastic as usual.

thanks cel for the clothes and my favourite almond tea. HAHA! you're the best! :D

and im seriously going crazy about jpop. ARASHI is like the best band ever! :D im so waiting for one love to be released.

here's ARASHI! got me through my studying woes. :D

okay. this is like cuteness. HAHA! oguri shun! :D

and the much acclaimed hotness, matsumoto jun.
he is just the best la. :D no words can encompass. HAHAHAA.

and im so upset! just found out tdy that hana yori dango's finale movie's not coming to sg. ): and i doubt hana kimi is either. OH MANN. that's it. so planning a trip to japan soon. i should just stay there. in some slum or squatter settlement. rawrr.

2008-06-14T17:47:00.006+08:00

one more week left. im getting a really bad feeling. maybe this wasn't my path to start with. thought of alternative plans and kinda made sure i've got my safety harness ready in case i get pushed or jump as though i'm going bungy jumping. my mind's in a completely distrupted state. totally confused and worn out. how much longer is this torture gonna last? maybe leaving which i've been fearing for one and a half years will be my answer, my release.

been thinking alot lately. im becoming very unsure of myself. of who i am or like what im doing. not emo-ing. but like just plain thinking. i used to be so sure of who i am, what i was doing and what i was gonna do. i had my plans, i was on track. now, im not even sure whether the path i was gna choose is right. caught in a dilemma between pursuing tourism which i've been chasing and the world of design i'm so used to. meeting people is kinda like who i am but designing and all are like what i grew up with. which kinda determines who i am too? okay. i think im gna turn schizophrenic soon and start tearing my hair out. and i've really been giving thought to the notion of being able to succeed even if i don't finish my a's. officially or beautifully. either. with money, most things seem possible. of course u have to want to do it. what's a year or five? as long as i get to my destination and be the best that i can there.

i should start taking my own advice. the one i told jamie last year. but maybe it's this sense of foreboding that's stopping me. didn't someone once assure me that the more times you fall, the easier it is to get up? the person apparently lied to me. i don't want to fall the third time. once was shattering. twice was unsettling. i don't know what the third will be. it's just this sense of losing that i hate. losing the habit or the friends i've gotten used to again. that i have to leave again if things go wrong this time. but yeah, i know. instead of thinking so much, why not spend my efforts and energy on working instead? well, i just wanna cushion myself in the event that i do fall. hard as it is to admit, im still afraid of falling.

things i can never put into words. things i still left unsaid. well, i know no one knows me so well that they know those parts. so let me retreat and hide for awhile while i know the storm is approaching.

2008-06-08T10:51:00.002+08:00

SUNDAY!
rest day, i wish. was supposed to germ to study but it's sunday so it's family time! :D

and today's excitement was gen bringing her bf to church! you are awesome lah! congrats. :D and we'll go pick zac up when he comes back in now 119 days okay! popeye's! :D and our pompom agreement. HAHA!

and cel, i can't believe u're gg to taiwan still. haha. lucky you. and thanks so much for the shopping part. grinns. enjoy yourself and take good care of urself! :D hohoho!

since today is supposedly a rest day, i've decided to enjoy myself and do lit. :D much more enjoyable.

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zac: yesyes. :D 120 more days. i know u can't wait to see me and gen lah! :D grins.

2008-06-04T21:13:00.002+08:00

it's the middle of the 2nd week alr! and im still nowhere near secure ):
i've officially decided that i'm gna go down to nat'l lib everyday. mid yrs are a terrible time.

studied with germ yest at starbucks near wheelock. java chip is yumm! :D we kept our eyes open till 4 thn went for makan at far east. shopping after! couldn't find my jansport backpack! )): probably gna go queensway i guess. bought a top from cotton on for 10. pretty! met jo in heartland. and we shopped for flats for germ. unsuccessful la. some 5dollar shop closed down. -.-

tuition tdy was copying madness! went thru entire macro in 3 hours! not to mention that i had to sit on those makeshift kinda chairs. too full! ): prelim prep's starting. it's scary. :/ time to change gear alr. :D

feast day :D

2008-05-31T22:45:00.004+08:00

today was much fun! stark difference from my sombre mood yesterday. went out in the early afternoon with jo and ja. :D there was wingtai nike sale. GRINS. we headed down to isetan to try to find my backpack. couldn't find any though. boos :( being thirsty, we went to full house to drink teh peng! super niceee. im telling you, teh peng is the lovee! :D after which, we bus-ed to dhoby cos it was pouring. rushed home for feast day celebrations!

mass was rather mundane. hmms. exciting part was when they did a video recording of fr jo. and video called him! coolios. :D first time i saw THAT in church! after mass was FEASTING! sat with my dear cousin ja.

picture with jo! :D who is again not looking at the camera!

messy messy hairs! we were going high and cheering for fr luke's fantastic singing! okay ja. you look plastered!

okay. this pic didn't happen today. last sat la. BUT, all of you, meet my new niece megan stefanie peh! isn't she cute! so small know. 1st mth last week! :D

SO! i've been rather satisfied today. :D happy happy. YAY-ness. plus THAT bit of info. grins. okay. STUDY TIME MY DEARS. let's do it! :D

holidays!

2008-05-28T13:00:00.002+08:00

it's the hols yo! GRINS. so don't get that feeling. it'sterrible to plough through stacks of readings. geog, econs, lit. sorting, planning, reading. wish i didn't leave everything till now. hahaha.. oh wells. it's time to really get down to studying. mugging. revision. make it or break it.

and i've been addicted! to this song 恋爱频率. it's so sweet lahs. haha! yeahh. and i've been glued to jap shows. finished quite a few shows. :D stayed up till like 3+ last few nights to finish watching them. grins. it is the lovee! and jap guys are sooo cute. OHMYGAWD. hahaaa!

econs tuition later. woohoo! jamielee says i have improved. men instead of boys. HAHAHA!

and i wish u all would just love cate more! cos we're just very much the same. haha. just that we're abit older? we still go crazy, we still love outings. and we still love abit of bimbo brains. :D

2008-05-22T22:56:00.002+08:00

im feeling extremely irritable now. like restless. hmms! going through gp stuff. essay skills as to how to 'massage the qn' (jamie will get it), AQ skills. goodness. honestly, i don't like regimentation. yet i don't think life would be possible without any. HMMS. ironic. tmr's the big day lah. for which we've all been slogging for. haha. okay as you can tell, my brain ain't functioning all that well. everything's in bits and pieces. fragmented.

math paper today was just bloody. normaldistribution is like the worst thing ever. BOO! binomial's just as bad lah. ohwells. just hope that everything'll go okay. or i guess i won't be in cj anymore huh. of course not forgetting, much thanks to jamielee for scanning tutorial answers! and also for answering loads of qns. meiqi too! math lessons wouldn't be the same without you! :D thanks for answering my qns and like being there when my brain needed an injection of math. HAHA. -.- (mind's not working)

AND, my biggest worry and frustration. not a person or issue. but rather a community. and maybe the 'issues' that kinda concern it. i wish last sunday never happened. i still heart you! but well, i know our views are currently clashing. but that doesn't mean that we're enemies or like rivals. cos i still do care. at least for you lah. i hate the way everything's going. i miss the peace, i miss the laughter. and i miss just plain talking and feeling comfortable with each other. i miss you so dear friend! (cannot be too direct lah. thus the annonymity.) and please remember that no matter what happens on sunday, you're still my sweet okay. love loads babe.

2008-05-19T00:26:00.002+08:00

currently having this very intriguing conversation with nic. (my cousin!) and i was telling him how it's scary and yet amazing the rate at which we're all growing up. well, he's in army now. and in about a year, i'll be off to uni. if i can make it. and 2 years later it's his turn. and he commented how the next 10 years are gonna be really fast changing. like how it's gna really shape us.

i was saying how it's sad that we're all growing apart. some studying abroad, some working. and we're prob gna get attached and married probably in the next 10 years. having said this, i miss you owzhiyin! come back for hols very very very soon okay! and yeah, so im just in a reminiscing mood and he's apparently excited right? HAHA! can't wait too but just feeling abit apprehensive sometimes. like what's gna be ahead kinda thing. but well, i guess it's gna be an exciting journey laa! HAHA! :D

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SERENAJOY: haha! you're super cute la. and don't be too bummed out! t2 was really good. :D and i guess losing to them is kinda acceptable lah huh? you all were so fantastic! lovee!

weekends!

2008-05-17T22:49:00.002+08:00

ytd was lit night. :D exciting definitely. except for that small detail. weirdd! anyhoots, t1 came in 2nd. disappointed definitely. but considering that t2 won, it wasn't that much of a letdown. t2's skit was fascinating. like amazing kinda fantastic! it was so different that it kinda got us sucked into it. halfway thru the skit ting and i were discussing how it's prob t1 and t2 who's gonna get to the top. and course we were right! :D

novena as usual with cel. hector came along today. and so did my mom and my aunt. hmm. well, highlight of the day was meeting jo for lunch at fisherman's wharf! the fish&chips there were simply gorgeous. and it's like only 6.50 laa. grins! best for the end of the week when u're going a little broke lunch! HAHA! thn it was down to nectarie for tea. i swear that nectarie sells the best cakes. so my aunt had this idea to buy a full cake which was like 28 bucks. and asked them to cut the cake up for us to eat. that was instead of buying the random slices which were like 7 bucks. (apparently a very auntie way of saving money la.) and, kenneth came down to meet us to buy a cake. so like 5 of us ravished the wonderfully delicious oreo cheesecake! not the typical kinda cheesecake with totally overflowing cheese. this was more of a oreo cheesecake rather than cheesecake with abit of oreo? HAHA.. okay. madness.

walked around to liang court after with jo. did you know they were renovating? HAHA! okay. sound like a total idiot now. but yeah, i didn't know they renovated! oh wells. had a nice chat with jo. about many many many stuff. don't know what i'll do if i couldn't tell you stuff! i'll probably go mad i guess. so thank goodness for you jo! and you still haven't told me about how the interview went. nvm. TMR. :D

and my arm is aching. for reasons unknown. very very painful. like i've hit a nerve or smth. which if it's like parkinson's? (the way you babes used to say i've parkinsons. -.-) anyway, next week's gna be rather hectic. with study days and h1 exams. and of course, gp. who can forget gp? im still stuck at cedric's essay. half of the examples he gave i had no idea before i read it. passion for sports lah huh. hahaha.. smth i lack rather much jo would testify. i wouldn't even watch soccer with her. okay i promise to do so in dec? HAHA! im sorry la. wait for me to grow money and get an lcd hd tv in my room okay. that means that it's not happening anytime soon. no money ahh. so, i shall get back to gp readings. how absolutely exciting..

study day!

2008-05-14T22:13:00.003+08:00

today was mass study day! :D at amk drive thru again. totally rocks that we can all sit down and seriously study. sorry if i kept coughing! so cold laa. goodness! for once, i liked the cold weather. definitely a breath of fresh air from all the hot days recently. anyway, everyone left early. to catch american idol. and nicole didn't come in the end! ):

so, tmr's econs tuition with yiling. tuition buddy! gotta finish my econs essay like finally. how embarrassing. and i seriously hope i don't spill anything this time. 2 times in a row is too much embarrassment alr! tsk.

enough said. im too tired. gonna bathe and go sleep! oh yeah. lit night on friday. and my maid's finally coming back from indon tmr! :D ohyeahh. ATTN: choir people study session at amk drive thru macs on 19th may! mcgridles yesyes? :D

sorry jo that i haven't called you! phone was running abit flat today. so so sorry ): pls tell me how it was? :D lovelove.

weekends.

2008-05-11T21:52:00.003+08:00

so today's MOTHER'S DAY! :D got my mom quite a cliched present. chocolates. but we haven't eaten that in a long while lah. our favourite royce amande chocolates! and i bought a whole box of it! thanks to jo who went down with me on friday night. :D

sat was spent with the usual choir hangout group. we tried to watch great ex, do my gp and celebrate birthdays. HAHA. rather hilarious. and of course, the scams. goodness. i got scammed when i was away? -.- lame leh! and of course i wish the scam was true. :D i wish i wish i wish. the scams got rather confusing at the end i heard! and best part was meeting fabian! miss you loads lah. haven't talked to you much yeah. and you all think that all those insults wouldn't catch up with my inferiority. it seems like you all mean it more than just teasing. and that's when i go back into myself. into that me unfamiliar to most now.

today was family day. went out for lunch and a bit of shopping with parents. AND, i received a pretty little pouch from my cousin! THANKS SAMUEL! from taiwan after army training. touched that you remembered me when shopping! haha! thank you!

and i guess this time round mission give up was rather successful. many things reminded me of the pain and tears in a relationship. i feel myself shutting out these emotions, afraid of the pain and headaches it brought me then. somehow, these come at appropriate times and remind me to wake up. and to a certain extent, not to go anywhere there. im scared. too scared and burnt by the fire to go near it anytime soon. (unless something unexpected happens of course.) but even so, it'll take time i guess. not now.

so now it's back to gp. readings and finishing up of short qns. hohoho! double gp tmr. okays. bye then.

MOLTING

2008-05-05T22:49:00.004+08:00

hohoho! back from econs tuition! :D lunch/dinner with yiling was fun! we were so starved we ate 1 foot long subway each. goodness! and she couldn't stop eating lahh! HAHA! stop eating alr okay!

mood at school was rather sombre. at least for me. knowing that things aren't the way they used to be, seeing old stuff come back.. it just evokes unsettling feelings that leaves you uneasy. wasn't even in a mood to care much about HIM. which may be a good start? but today wasn't a good day lah. that's apart from the fact that it's AMADEA CHOO's birthday today. :D happy birthday girl. i'm just rather zonked out from the weekend that i didn't do much for you. super sorry. but i guess you enjoyed your birthday much still nonetheless, yes? haha! lovee.

im starting to molt. ): skin overly burnt from thurs and fri's tanning sessions. grrs. it looks terrible now!

anyway, it's rj's concert at the esplanade tmr. gna come home to change thn go and watch. i've always wanted to try singing at the esplanade to get a feel of the acoustics. (something to do with me not believing that the acoustics are so darn good!) guess that's not really possible considering that im kinda finally ending my choral life? it'll be hard to find people who are passionate about music the way the choir people now are.

and i had to leave for awhile to go wash my clothes. YES, i am washing clothes. though hard to believe. haha! and they're clean okay! claps! so proud of myself. ^^

am soo tired. shall go sleep. nights then! and sorry for lagging in photo upload. waiting for kenneth to send me the photos! :D i'll upload all the necessary stuff then okay? sorry annemarie! i still love you though! :D
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cel: i know! rocks. and i have a proposition. shall msg you. :D
meiqi: yeshh! u know smth. i have not much determination when it comes to food. it's like denying yourself or your best fren. ): it hurts. HAHA! i love food laa! which is why im sucha pig.

new skin!

2008-05-04T23:27:00.003+08:00

finally found a new pretty skin! clapclap! :D

i'm sunburnt! badly. subsided quite alot already now. it was so painful! rawr. i walked around town on friday carrying my bag on hand. made me look like a full fledged idiot! and there's something with badminton! why's everyone playing badminton suddenly? it's like the next craze after frisbee.

today was specs day. :D jacinta decided to make specs. which made corde feel like making specs. though she didn't. haha! but there was the urge!

and gp readings are killing me. i think they're evil. makes me totally tired out by the end of it. not to mention i haven't done my econs and geog tutorial. so now, it's officially homework time.

and i guess it's time to give you up. it's getting nowhere and it's starting to hurt when you get closer to her. somehow my determination to remain neutral seems insufficient. this is the end of the road it seems. it's finally time to wake up.

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meiqi: haha. must motivate myself to lose weight la. :D HEEHEE!
charmaine: im fine alr lah. emo night then! thanks though. (:
alicia: im okay la. okay alr now at least! HAHA!
zac: i miss you loads! can you hurry back? ): and bring stuff back for me. HAHA! can i give you a list? PLEASE? ^^

yesterday was a sad sad day.

2008-04-26T22:30:00.000+08:00

okay. i admit it. i cried buckets last night. demoralised and beaten. sometimes i just don't know where to draw strength from. it's like doing so much and yet not reciprocated. it's like i was put here as a joke. to be made fun of, to be trampled upon and humiliated. and yes, i didn't cry. tear maybe. at that point in time i mean. i held back and resisted the urge to let it all out. to let everything bad that had happened through the day out. painful yes. but it kinda reminded me of where i started out from. in the beginning. and fears started to form within me. like i had just run so far only to realise i'm running backwards back to the finish line. or i have merely been negatively displaced. hate that feeling. pride maybe. but rather felt a sense of futility.

bypassing all that emo talk, i went swimming today with cel and lina. finally learnt something. haha. i shall not elaborate cos it'll only lead to my embarrassment. haha. but i must say im feeling much happier now. im not an emo person by nature lah. can't stay emo for so long. will kill myself. played abit of frisbee with the yc people. and made myself abit depressed. germaine will know why lah. haha. thanks for all the talks that we've had. you really listen well. and tell me the right stuff and all. and thanks for always having faith in THAT.

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meiqi: hahaha.. yesh pls. many many. and im not bouncy! im just crazy lah! :D
jo/corde: yes i like the mattress! who didn't? at least no backaches as with all the other camps. :D i was so determined not to get backaches i even brought a pillow okay. so of course i liked the mattress lah! :D

my dilemma

2008-04-21T21:08:00.004+08:00

realised that actual blogging is a luxury nowadays. don't really have time to sit down and think about stuff. godma came just now and had a talk with me. cried buckets. okay. emotional me. but it really felt nice to know that someone believed in you for who you are. and not judge you against what the world wants you to be. esp when u fall short of it and people laugh and point fingers at you. it can be so trying sometimes. crying it out felt good. realised that i just kept running away after that. just kept running. i didn't dare to stop and think of the alternative. nor of any consequence. i just didn't wanna face it. since it's forced on me today, had no choice yeah. felt much better after letting out all my frustrations. and it was good to be reminded that god is with me through it all. no matter what happens. even if im asked to leave after mid years, it won't make me less of a person. it prob just means im not suited for this path i guess.

and other things i kept inside. it's frustrating to wait one after another. when one storm calms, another seems to stir at the other end. don't know how im gna cross it definitely. all the ambiguity's killing me. anxious, excited yet afraid at the same time. shoess asked a good question today. are you ever gonna tell? no was my first response. and i guess i'll stick by that. it's not worth it to lose that friendship and get ignored for the rest of my life. sadly, i am still hanging on. hoping that this cloud's silver lining appears soon.

naive? you bet. but i guess that's just me. realised today that i am still rather naive and innocent. not in the pure minded sense but intentions and all i guess. i still trust too easily, like fabian has always said i did. i forgive (most of the time) very easily. must leave abit of space for anomalies. :D and well, i guess i still hang on very much to my child like thinking that the world will love me if i love the world. know it isn't the best thing to stay as though im only 5 up in my brain. but im just hoping that it makes things less complicated. it's tiring. i want a break. yawns.

yc senior's retreat

2008-04-20T21:58:00.003+08:00

okay. didn't say much abt going for the retreat previously. but i still went. :D i can definitely say that i thoroughly enjoyed myself. no regrets definitely!

one reason i renjoyed myself was definitely cos of the company. the bunnies are really fun! :D and of course, who can forget my sweets! the three of you seriously make my days. and NIGHTS! bedtime was super fun with sweets. :D hints. you all know what i mean la!

the sessions were definitely meaningful. me and jo concluded that it was definitely not what we expected. actually i did la. seeing it being an ihm camp. but well jo, welcome to ihm! :D officially camping alr! and i know u like the mattress part right. haha! secretly! but truly, it was a memorable camp. the first with the ycs officially. thanks alot for being so acceptive of us. lovee.

okay. cam whore pictures might be up when i get it from kenneth. :D till then. bye!

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cel: couldn't agree more with you my dear! :D
meiqi: really la. bunny not so fat one. bunnies are more bouncy. not fat. ):
zac: aww. :D you smiled at me! HAHA! miss you loads laa.
anneeee: HELLO! fine fine fine. tired? stressed? you get the picture. sighhs. we haven't met up for vday. HAHAHA!

extra lessons

2008-04-15T21:17:00.002+08:00

okay. welcome to the fantastic world of extra lessons. well, this is just the beginning. RAH! so now i not only have extra geog remedial (like the one today), i also have gp extra lessons. i'ld rather gp i guess, though preferably none. seriously, lessons should ~~not~~ never be at anywhere near 3 or 4. my brain doesn't work! was almost falling asleep during the geog written assignment. snores.

SIGHS.

today was jamie's bday! no photos though. abit too rushed. SORRY! and im super sorry that i didn't wish you in the morning. gulps. was trying my best to surprise you! and does the fact that you didn't realise anything mean that im starting to be like less obvious. haha! i hope you like the wallet ting and maydear got for you! and the pretty book of course! my pride lah. :D

and this weekend's yc senior retreat. im going for it! okay. don't be astonished. haha! pulled jo along with me. grins. THANK YOU for coming with me! helps alot la.

and now, i guess it's back to the world of charles dickens. have i ever told you that charles dickens' great expectations really has great expectations on us by thinking that we can plough through this thick, boring book that has way too much details and drones on and on? well, if no, you now know. gotta complete my cyp. what is cyp? chart-your-progress. right. not that it isn't good lah. but im just very tired out! just woke up at like 9 for dinner. just knocked out. and it didn't help that it was raining today! on a day when i forgot to bring my umbrella! RAWR!

so much for ranting. gna do my work now. :D yawns. haha.

RAH!

2008-04-13T22:31:00.003+08:00

im thoroughly irritated. i don't owe you people anything okay. it's not fun waiting as though there's nothing better i have to do. just cos i take the effort, i get ignored. rah! changed it so many times and what did i get from it? maybe im just a lousy pork which can't even organise a simple thing. don't see a point in putting in the effort and getting snubbed. not the first time. don't see it being the last either.

on an entirely different issue, but somehow related, enough is enough i guess. time to snap out of it. yes, it. im walking away from it. but my decision isn't resolute i must say. all it takes is a tap on my back and i'll turn back. but well, it's not happening. so i guess i'll just be on my way. away.

friday nights

2008-04-12T09:37:00.003+08:00

supposed to be done at cel's house now. but guess im just too tired. gulps. sorry!

we went out ytd for a little girl's night out. :D miss the times loads. all the gossipping and bitching. hohoho! food was the lovee. XLBs. (xiaolongbaos) well the most hilarious was us cam whoring at cel's place. HILARIOUS! friday nights should be spent like this! can't wait to really graduate and have a bit more free time. for now, im happy i guess!

well, these few days are super packed. celebrations after celebrations. goshh. so many things so little time! TSK! okay. so now i've gotta wash up to go for novena. with my darling. thn, it's on to lesson planning and the workshop thing for the m'sian catechetical series. gahhs. alrights. BYE!

and if you're wondering why im not blogging much, it's cos of the OTHER. haha!

study study study!

2008-04-05T22:49:00.003+08:00

spent part of my day studying. rather proud of myself! :D seldom that i start studying on saturdays. about eveningtime, got cheated by germaine. ended up going for yc. im such a easy person to cheat! they just had to say they needed someone to help them set up the laptop! im so lousy! tsk!

germaine came my house for abit of dinner. thn we studied till supper! chatted quite alot! :D and planned stuff. TOP SECRET! day well spent! HOHOHO!

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syl: ehh, im not sure leh. we can do on demand i guess! what do you need? :D
na: stop 'mooning' me! so sad. ): HAHA!
cel: we deproved quite abit ytd. sighs. toh wasn't very happy. said that we are unsually out of tune. can't hear and all. throats hanging by a thread. gulps!

broken again

2008-04-01T23:17:00.002+08:00

today was devastating you could say. i don't know what i feel anymore after writing draft after drafts. im scared. im worried. i just wanna hide somewhere where no one can see me and then cry my heart out. how did things turn this way again. im emotionally and mentally drained.

but thanks to those who offered support and love. i definitely appreciate it. but i feel lonely on this journey. not cos no one's supporting me. but rather cos im going through this alone. i daren't throw all my troubles on someone lest it breaks. think about the idiom of not putting all your eggs in one basket as you will lose everything you have if it breaks. same logic.

tear me apart once more. i cry.

monday. sighs!

2008-03-31T20:55:00.002+08:00

mondays are the worst days. ): had my hydro test today. went in late after pe. im rather worried abt the outcome of the test eh. as in seriously! i dunno what'll happen. gulps.

anyway, meeting with corde and kenneth tmr to plan next sunday's lesson. exciting! thn studying with germaine. hohoho! :D

pft 2.4km run on thurs. or isit wed. can't rmb lah. this week lah! im very very worried. don't understand why my life is kinda sucky now. apart from the whole choir thing. bad hair, like a moon. and im slow as tortoise! TSK!

and there's urban test this week. and i heard, macro too. please save me! this is just another monday blues kinda post. RAH!

CHOIR, my life

2008-03-28T23:04:00.003+08:00

i am truly in love with choir. honestly, i don't know what i'll do if i didn't sing. i guess i wouldn't know how to breathe. both metaphorically and literally! HAHA! lame! but i can truly say. choir is my greatest love! :D i especially love performance preparation. although intense, you hear the greatest music created. you gain enlightenment to the intrinsic reward in singing, the 'hair-standing' experience. nothing can replace that. an experience i can say is just yours and yours alone to soak in. that said, sacrifices are necessary i guess. and tmr's one big example. sighs. wish i could have my cake and eat it at the same time. but yeah, compromise eh? so there's choir tmr earlier. at least im doing smth i like. but well, giving up smth else on the other hand. ): just for that little intrinsic reward and well, doing the right thing.

concert's in about 1 week plus. things are taking shape i know. :D and im very very proud of the j2s and the amount of effort you guys have put in. it truly is special. and the j1s for not giving up. well, we've really come very far, working at such pressured conditions and attaining this kinda standard. every single batch has smth special. and i guess i was lucky enough to experience this batch. i can definitely say that choir made up for my retaining woes. it's the last lap. come on. we'll get through it altogether. lovee!

SICK! ):

2008-03-27T15:20:00.003+08:00

so im at home. sick. ): drats. well, concert's in about 12 days. and we're FAR from being prepared. im serious. the standard if there, doesn't have the x-factor. the special feeling i get when i sang last yr and the yr before. i don't really get the 'hairstanding' experience. now, it's kinda technical that we are in tune (if we are) and that we're listening with each other. but anyways, yeah. can't wait though. :D i love performing with the choir.

okay. so ytd was secret galore. found out stuff that maybe i was never meant to find out. shocked and stunned. called jo to meet up and talk for almost an hour. gulps. it scares me how things can turn out this way. was way too depressed for choir dinner. so i just went home with kathy. well, i felt much better after talking to jo. calms me down as always. but fact still remains.

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cel: there's hope what! your screwed up logic though screwed up makes sense my dear! haha(: hang in there lah. for all you know.. HOHO!
meiqi: psp is fun right! :D i love my psp laa. heez. well, ct just sucks. maybe mids will be better lor. hopefully. and i love you too! grins!
lene: haha! yah. i knoww. i met her ytd. :D and sat's gna be fun. i think!
alicia: hey. haha. not really. sch life is just liddat. can't get lesser, can't get more exciting. not bad lah. can lah. haha..

school

2008-03-24T23:06:00.002+08:00

sighs. today was back to school! and this week's timetable sucks like hell. ): had pe at 2nd period when i was feeling REALLY sleepy. ran 2.4 and did the usual jump over hurdle thingy. rather disappointed with myself. don't know if i could have done better? not your fault maydear! i choose to accompany you lah. but sorry for forcing you to run. ): gulps. maybe next wk pft i run first lor. thn you won't be so stressed! and on another note, i really love class times now. finally feel a bond with the class. and of course my darlings! grins. i can now say, school isn't the same without you three!

was blog surfing. whn i chanced upon germaine and xavier's blogs. omg. they're super 'healthy' la. as in their relationship and all. but you can feel happy just looking at them. haha! and it's the sweet kinda feeling! aww. :D but well, like what my dearest jacinta says. a relationship built on god, trust and love can't really go wrong. haha!

wanted to go down to nlb tmr. to research stuff. but jo's not free. so guess i gotta shelve that plan for next week? hohoho! nvm thn. and school ends at 3 tmr. AGAIN! 2 days in a row. it's tiring me out seriously. ):

can't wait for sat!

easter sunday

2008-03-23T21:30:00.002+08:00

truly. this whole holy week and easter was memorable. in many many ways. had our easter effort finally today. children mass + easter party. haha! the games were fun and the company was even better! i really like the yc and children lit people. they're really fun! :D

working with you's really enjoyable. you manage to cheer me up at the right times. talk to me whn i was really tired. listen to me whn i just wanna rant. help me whn i took everything upon myself. many many times. you're just addictive! :D

and meet my new drink addiction. TEH PENG. (totally irrelevant to above para btw!) i've been drinking lotsa teh pengs last wk or so. and skipped many meals! at least i haven't been eating much. which is so good for me. means that i can finally lose weight! totally got influenced by corde alr laa! haha..

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nat: yah! once an angel forever an angel! :D
cel: that's what i tell myself most of the times. millions have gone thru it. you can too. i will hang it there la. at least for now. haha..

my dilemma

2008-03-22T22:03:00.003+08:00

hello! have been so busy doing church stuff these few days. that church has become my second home. i quote jo. HAHA!

and stop confusing me. after talking to cel i felt much more cleared up and determined. but please. stop confusing me. my heart is weak and gets swayed easily. so stop swaying my heart! every little thing you do makes me turn. and i don't think im the only one who realised. so give me a hand won't you? it's so addictive and so repulsive at the same time. it becomes a great paradox. i wanna draw close and yet i fear. i push the idea out of my mind not wanting to have the slightest inclination. when i know my heart has already beat my mind to that destination. yes. how screwed up i am.

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meiqi: hey hunney. i think you're not very happy these few days also lor. we must study hard okay. im rather worried for you. ): cos i haven't seen you happy for quite a while. jiayou okay. bunney loves hunney. hugs!
cel: at least i passed my lit! barely. but i didn't fail! or else i'll feel like i've let you down!
annemarie: you niece! enjoying yourself in america! TSK! haha! happy birthday laa. :D and i dunno what to get you. just enjoy yourself in america? HAHA! stingy aunt! :D
jo: aiyoh. i really fail 2 subjs alr! terrible. time to change gear. work harder.
joyce the xianggong! : eh? chilli padi? doubt lah! HAHA! well, i did rather badly lor. sighs. sorry! let you down la. sighs. i'll work harder!

good friday.

2008-03-21T12:05:00.002+08:00

so today's finally good friday. where i seem to have so many activities planned. went for walk-a-cross ytd till today morning. we walked for 9 hrs, stopping to rest at each church after a small session. it was super hard to keep awake during the sessions. esp at svdp where we did taize prayer. i was drifting in and out of real consciousness. going a few times into dreamland. gulps. but! this was definitely the most meaningful holy thursday by far. the agony of staying awake just to be with jesus. the exhaustion that threatened to topple us. the worst part was from st. anne's to svdp. we walked for an hour and were still quite far away. not much reflection done during that part of the walk. abit too shagged. the company was more or less what kept me going. jo darling, corde, jacinta, cal, kenneth, the ice lemon tea :D, becca, cassie, ivy. more or less. i don't think i would've been able to complete it alone. rather daunting. but well, we got back to church yes! :D

rewarding? definitely. for once in my 18 years of life, i finally feel good friday. crashed whn i got home. couldn't get up in time for 10 o'clock service. shats. have to go myself later for 3 o'clock's one. ):

results

2008-03-18T18:54:00.001+08:00

totally sucky results. super disappointed. cos i did study. i know the reason. but it wouldn't be too nice to post it here. i just hope everything will be fine. i hope i won't be asked to leave school. im seriously worried. have a bad feeling tt im gna fail EVERYTHING. cries.

step up 2!

2008-03-14T22:44:00.003+08:00

haven't really been blogging. super tired out and well, speechless. anyway, today was totally meet people day! went with cel, bins and pamela to watch step up 2. which totally rocks. makes me wanna learn hip hop. :D which i will la! hahaha! my new resolution! the moves were more than cool lah. it was god-like. HAHA!

anyway, met lotsa people today. weird! while me and bins sat at starbucks at ps waiting for them both, we met geraldine. who had some nj dance thing. thn, while sitting there, met kian. and qazim. THN, before gg up to cinema, we went toilet. where i met tricia. and MARY. omg la. totally meet people day!

random: i bought a pretty nail polish from face shop thanks to pamela! :D

choir was alright. it's getting better. and tangueando rocks la. just heard the UST version of it. omg! HAHA! and concert's coming up! people, pls order tix! tues 8 apr. victoria concert hall. 7.45 pm! :D $12/$15 and i really think choir rocks now. i don't know what i'll do without choir!

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anne: I LUBB YOU TOO! haven't seen you for the longest time la. miss you loads la. (i need geog help!) HAHA!
lene: YESH. i miss hugging you! so soft and cuddly. hahaha! class reunion soon la. no worries!
meiqi: no la. won't! cos no hopes thn not as much disappointment. true? HAHA!

traumatised

2008-03-07T23:19:00.002+08:00

i am still in a state of blankness now. not that i'ld like to admit. but yes, i am in a state of void. the overload of emotions over the last few hours caused it i guess. didn't wanna show it la. i tried my best! quite sure no one realised.

im very very worried for you. i know there're stuff which you haven't told me and i know i didn't ask either. it's kinda like the unspoken stuff. i wish you'ld tell me. cos i know you will when you are ready. that's why im not asking. but im really worried for you. pls tell me if things are troubling you okay. cos i wanna be there for you too. the way you're always there for me the past 6 years? truth be told, you're just a phone call away. but i daren't call you. first time i guess. cos i don't wanna put any more pressure on you than that which you've put on yourself. but wells.. i hope you're fine and not do anything silly. (i know you won't. only i will! haha..) but still. im worried lah yah. so if you're feeling better and you read this just drop me an sms okay!

and i realised i've grown smarter. or more sensible. i know better than to approach matters which will both ruin my mood and cause the situation to deteriorate. do i know you too well? or is this situation all too familiar? cos i've seen it umpteen times. this time, i finally made the right decision. definitely.

i saw you today. running. sudden barrier. didn't know what to say to you so i didn't call you. feel as though im chasing after you. and it's tiring me out. (metaphorically. not physical chasing) maybe you ARE fitter than me in all ways. i hope this race was run by only the two of us. but im not sure whether it is. if it isn't i don't have the courage and the energy to continue knowing that i'll be losing.

well, feel might better after getting lotsa stuff off my chest. im tired out. exhausted and drained. but i'll recharge soon. and i'll be ready for retail therapy with the choir people tmr. one thing good? i'll laugh till i feel my lungs are collapsing. :D

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meiqi: yes hunney! it is! haha. sorry laa!
anne: omg. shut up you niece! HAHAHA! you auntie until so big. make me feel so OLD! tskk! terrible. no more present for you alr! -shakes head-
lene: what nonsense! you make me sound like im drowning. hahaa!
cel: DEFINITELY! dreams are nice. cos they take you away from the terrible reality. sometimes i seriously just wanna stay away from reality. no matter how naive or unrealistic or illogical it may be. i'll feel happier that way no? hahaha..

dreams

2008-03-01T22:12:00.002+08:00

a dream is a wish your heart makes. :D right cel? and i don't wanna wake up. EVER!

i smiling like an idiot! i could stare at you all day and not get tired. :D you make me smile. GRINS!

melted :D

2008-02-29T21:21:00.002+08:00

alrights. so these few days have been rather eventful! study session with nicole on wed. super productive. i just can't get into studying mood tonight. grrs.

anyway! ytd, had extra gp lesson till 5. thn went to popular fair at the expo! andre, corde and anne marie drove down to cj and met anton and kenneth! :D and they all waited for me. car rides were games of who-can-suan-cher-the-most. -.- TOTALLY. non-stop. aww. i could feel the LOVE la. we went to cgh to visit andre's grandpa. aka, my uncle. HAHA! me and kenneth were rather out of place la. thus resulting in us playing with the measuring tape for height. WHICH led to even more suanning sessions. HAHAHA.. we picked jacinta up and went to mad jacks for dinner! i took freaking long to decide. choosy fussy me. :D well, it was FINALLY popular fair thn! bought stuff for sunday's games day. grins.

i've been extremely happy these few days. i know it's like a bubble, ready to burst with the slightest touch. dashing all my hopes, bringing me back to reality. i think i have a love-hate relationship with reality. but still, i wanna live in this dream. haven't had this dream for a very very long time. i know i'll prob be thinking too much. but well, everything starts off with dreams and hopes no? and the things you've done for me, i'll definitely remember. :D cos those were the nicest things someone's ever done for me. thinking about how impossible everything seems makes me wanna run away. i guess im just waiting for reality to burst my bubble and prove my inner fears right. so tell me, is this a dilemma or is my dream coming true? the latter please.

much better day

2008-02-26T19:49:00.002+08:00

today was SO much better. had lotsa fun in class. in econs with jamie, justin and chuan. hilarious! thn geog with mr tay. :D got back like geog FAs and failed TERRIBLY. seriously. haha. i think im gna die.

went to study with my darling hunney today! :D at subway. did some phy geog work. grins! met rachel tan who was sitting at the next table. and i met BRANDON LOW KAI HAO! i miss you laa! all our jiang sessions and those ownage times! :D catch up very very soon! cos bran is missed by cher! loveee!

gna go to the expo on thurs. with the youth cats people. and my 'family'. nephews and niece, cousin, bestie, and random kenneth and maybe ivy. can't wait! :D it's me trying to escape from the reality of the approaching examinations. for which i must compose myself. HAHAHA! sounds familiar cel?

and you certainly brightened up my dull and uninspiring day. seeing you makes me happy and talking put me in a good mood! cher now has motivation to study! :D
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cel: haha. i meant the person's reconstruction. not mine. haha! and cover shopping soon! :D miss you loads dearie~ exercise session soon! and if u wanna know, im PLOUGHING through ur stack of stuff. GOODNESS!

sucky day

2008-02-25T20:50:00.002+08:00

today was an awfully bad day. the only incentive was you. but that didn't last very long either.

i don't know if it helped. but i know i did all that i could. if u don't wanna believe me so be it. i can't do anything about it too. and i did try. im sick and tired of it. worst of all you're freaking misunderstanding me. i tried to tell you. but what did u tell me? that it's ur choice whether or not to believe me. and your attitude was just showing. you weren't really interested. body language tells alot. and i guess im just wasting my time. why did i even bother? no more will i care. it's just unfair that im being misunderstood when nothing even happened. having said that, my conscience is clear. if you choose to judge me, i can't retalliate. cos it's all in the mind now.

everything is a reconstruction. and only a reconstruction. alas, i weep. i weep indignant tears. the cruel, unjust torture of being misunderstood.

watched my weekly show. and cheered myself up.

study times

2008-02-23T22:57:00.003+08:00

and im back from another round of studying. :D i THOROUGHLY went thru the components of the hydrological cycle. made a beeeaauuutiful mind map! WHEE! grins. hahhaa..

ytd was cca bazaar. rather screwed up. in my terms. both performance-wise and the no. of people that signed up. was terribly stressed out. the kill myself extent alr. -stabs- but i guess the new j1s that we just got are quite good! 2 cat high guys. and 1 st. gabs guy who learns opera. wah! HAHA! made me quite happy. :D

Went to meet the choir people today. after like eons of absenting myself. saw mrs tan who asked me what i was doing singing instead of revising. darn! anyway, it was GOOD to see the choir people. miss them LOADS. esp my dearest cel. today's one of the days where it seems as though i've been transported in time back to the holidays where we could spend practically everyday together. and still have stuff to gossip and complain about. much to the amazement of bins and the hippo. hahaha!

and you wouldn't wanna know how much i can't stand this situation. you're making something out of nothing and it isn't fair to me. you think u've been disadvantaged but have you stood to think in my or our shoes? don't think so. and everything wasn't exclusive. you could join in, if you wanted. i just don't understand how this ambiguity could persist and how everything could go downslope like this. i want to clear things up so that the tension would ease. but everytime i see you well, i get daggers. sighs. i'm at my wits end. please just relax. cos everything u've been thinking of was not at all my intention. no where near it. so please, trust me?

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maydear: i love it too la! and u changed ur skin too! it looks prettier! hahaha.. just tt the top can't see. hmms!
jo: yah! and u changed urs too. suddenly everyone changing ah! HAHA! :D

happy day

2008-02-19T19:43:00.003+08:00

okay. so today's the 2nd consecutive late day. yawns. im freaking tired now. and I MISS JAMIE LEE! school's just different without you. :D and don't worry. i survived well these 2 days. grins. and i hope you get well soon twin! and i must say i really love our little clique. :D things are definitely getting better. and i don't dread clique times! i love them! haha!
well, i've gotta plan mass lesson. got some ideas alr la. not that bad. we'll pull it off ya jo? as we always do! HAHA! thanks for being so helpful this yr. i've been rather irresponsible where catechism is concerned. gulps. meeting on sunday so i guess no runs again. DARN. oh wells. more mass lunching! LOVE!

and CTs are in less than 2 wks. goodness. econs test on thurs. i think i should hang myself! gahh!

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zac: no.. i don't think we're gg shopping. i think we're going kbox my dear. and ryan can't make it i think. smth abt him working in IT fair? hmms! yah lor. i just realised how weird it'll for me to go out with 3 guys. OH WAIT. i mean 3 sisters. no problem then. :D

busy!

2008-02-18T21:08:00.003+08:00

SO! i have got gp assignments to do. and a cca bazaar to pull together. :D anyone knows what the US constitution looks like? help? hahaha..

went for lunch ytd as usual. with the youth cate people. had chicken rice at gardens. whee! i missed mass lunching. :D my dear nephew, whn u have ur car, can we go further? like amk hub. grins. and i was kinda dealt a BIG SHOCK whn i found some terribly shocking news. SERIOUS. wanted to go around shouting and screaming like a mad mad girl. but kinda chose the dazed option. totally stonned for half an hour or so. wasn't registering. what's done's done yeah. and i guess i saw the signs. i just didn't want to accept it! so, corde, welcome to our family. must start calling me aunt alr. :D

moving on, we met ryan who was eaint at the shop opposite. -.- retarded. msged me and corde somemore. and like true retards, we started like turning here and there trying to find him. HAHAHA! ohyah. my dear bros, how about meeting up on next next weekend? :D choose either sentosa-ing, kbox-ing or pool! grins. miss this so much la. OH! maybe we shd go play bball. jerry thinks we shd k.

and i don't think i've mentioned this but i ran last sun! or do u call it last last. hmms. almost died. anyone can give me a better suggestion to losing fats and not building muscles? haha! cos i can't seem to find any. ):

i found a distant cousin again! :D this time she's in cj. in my lit and math classes. hope i get to talk more to her la. seems kinda quiet eh. thn maybe can ask her to go out to study! or like study at her poolside! grins. :D if u ever happen to read this, must talk more okay!

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xianggong: buy me a nice nice nice ring first. :D maybe i'll consider. or maybe we should wait for s'pore to legalise gay marriages. HAHAHA! and dinner was fun! whn are u coming to teach me econs! TSK. CTs coming alr pls. by the time u teach ah, i might've been kicked out of school. haha. and btw, ms lee's bday is in dec. -.- not april. i think u kenna bluff. haha!

jojo: i love you lots! and im sure you know that. grins. :D

meiqi: haha! i knoww~ shall treat you to more next time. i only have a box of choc ones which melt whn they are out of the fridge. next time okay! and im excited about tmr's study session yo! :D

zhiyin's farewell ):

2008-02-14T18:51:00.006+08:00

tried very hard to not think about it. escaped from the reality that he's leaving. thn it hits me hard. you're leaving on sat. you're really like a brother to me. ): those teasing times, those gossiping times, emo times or just plain hanging out. i'll never forget these 18 yrs of fun. :D LOVE! you better take GOOD care of urself and bring my godbro back safely to me okay! i'll miss you like crazy la.

and pls don't forget the cam-whoring that i've taught you. :D take more pictures and like post okay! grins. and maybe bring a pretty aussie girl back? hahaha! i promise to go visit you whn i finish my a's. :D i'll go there to celebrate your birthday okay! but for now, all the best my dear!

so, tuesday was the farewell dinner. official. met with 6th aunt, uncle alex, minmin, desmond and the star, zhiyin. had dinner at fisherman's wharf. :D glorious food. HAHA! met sean and milli who were passing by on their way to go jam.

zhiyin and me! :D plus my aunt in the other pic. haha!

LOOK AT IT! delicious! half eaten alr laa. hahaha.
the black box's the present. :D HAHA! we were kinda bored. and nectarie's cakes are gorgeously yummy! need to go eat it again soon! we bought a cake for my mommy. her birthday. THUS, i have like 8/9 of a cake still sitting in my fridge. grins.

vday tdy. pretzels are delicious. haha!

and im hooked onto finally by fergie. surprise surprise! haha!

Ever since I was a baby girl I had a dream
Cinderella theme
Crazy as it seems
Always knew that deep inside that there would come that day
But I would have to wait
Make so many mistakes
I couldn't comprehend
As I watched it unfold
This classic story told I left it in the cold
Walking through an open door that led me back to you
Each one unlocking more of the truth

cny celebrations~!

2008-02-08T21:15:00.000+08:00

heyheyhey! it's another episode of i-love-my-family! haha! well, i had a rather hectic 2 days. :D

first day was at mom's side at grandma's house. okay la. after all my cousins left, it got kinda lonely? hmms! but it was kinda fun while they were around! we wanted to form a band and take part in superband! wanted to call us family-x but there's a show alr! so maybe x-family? HAHA! super retarded la! didn't take many pics cos cousins came and left. not really much time together! and of course the most memorable was timothy and his dunno concealer or foundation that was so obvious! well, you're invited to our bimbo club alr! :D WELCOME! haha! join in me and caili and qinxin! if we ever form oneee.

me and cai li. don't u think she's REALLY pretty. :D

and me and qinxin. trying out the same pose. retarded-ness! HAHAHA!

well, going on to the 2nd day, today.. went to 2nd aunt's house! played lotsa edwin's ps2. drummania, guitarfreaks, nfs most wanted and URBZ SIMS IN THE CITY! haha! my cousins will know why i caps it laa. anyway, it was REALLY fun! :D and we got news that carol (our cousin) is getting married! HOHOHO! wedding soon :D means we will get to meet up. yayy! see the photos!

me and mary!

edwin and martin. can't rmb what they were talking about~! martin, look happier pls! like edwin! HAHA!

michael looks SO happy! HAHA! and this was in the middle of an nfs race! he's super happy to pose la! :D YAY! the one and only!

me and nic! :D dunno what he's looking at! HAHA!

and the super reluctant hen and ben. well, what can i say. they don't even wanna look at camera!

well, that was most of the fun i had! HAHA! again, i love my family! and we're gna set up a family blog! :D SUPER FUN LA! lovee!

outing!

2008-02-06T21:05:00.000+08:00

just came back from reunion dinner. with my darling cousins! :D HOHOHO! they are the LOVE! shall put pics of them up tmr.

for now, i shall blog about the t7 lunch! grins. okay! so i went home after school. bus stop was FLOODED! i only got home at 12 plus. sorry mann jo! well, caused jo to be late as usual. thanks lots jo! HAHA! so we were 45 mins late. :D sorry! and the t7-ers were kind enuf to wait for us. aww! thn, we ordered and cam-whored till our food came! tried calling chris and edward. edward didn't pick up and chris couldn't come. we managed to get fabian and xianyao though! :D YOU TWO LOOK HILARIOUS! grins. anyway, here are the photos as promised.

my darling jo and me! :D

we happened to be sitting liddat. so, me, tiff, anne. :D you two make me look REALLY fat!

haha. random shot! from left, shaz, anne, rosel, jo!

CLIQUE! okay lah. small clique thing. but t7's more of a BIG FAMILY! :D i love you xiang gong!

me and tiffy :D bimbo fren!

rosel being totally engrossed. complete with hand actions! HAHA! shaz's more interested in ME! HAHA! just kidding rosy! don't get angry and give me murderous stares! :D

the attack of rosel. HAHA! u either get suanned, or u get attacked. well.. HAHA! and jo's just enjoying herself. what can we say! HAHAHA!

me and mr han xianyao! back from commando training! wheee!

random shot of pretty tiffy! HAHA!

joyce took me taking her. that's why i love my xiang gong la. equally retarded! :D shall we go register like NOW!

after eating, we went walking arnd at ps. and, i miss my lao pei (daddy = fabian) lots! miss all those heart to heart crapping talks. :D glad we managed to have one! and while we were at ps, we finished his mission! HOHOHO! cher rocks don't u think! now just the completion of the mission. :D GRINS!

today made cher rather depressed. cos her relative (not u cel, my real relatives!) said that she's fat. THANKS AH. so cher is now facing up to reality and going for runs. SUNDAY RUNS. after cate at the track. everyone's invited. to run. not to see me malu myself. BUT I ASSURE YOU! cher will slim down and be prettier. okay. that's that! off to change and finish some stuff before the new year arrives. alright!

OH YAH! i met ryan on my way home! haven't seen you for such a long time bro! it's about time we met up. with jerry and zac. met jerry for mass ytd and totally got suanned the whole hour plus. GRRS! you better watch out okay! we must definitely meet up before zac goes off to the US okay! lovee!

for now, :D happy cny~!

guess what? it's monday.

2008-02-04T20:25:00.001+08:00

monday again! can't believe it. so terribly fast. haha. well, at least this week's what i've been looking forward to for ages! :D cny LONG weekend. one of my MAJOR plans is meeting up with t7 for cny eve's lunch! long awaited reunion that i haven't really been able to attend. :D funny how me and fabian used to spend hours thinking how chaotic our dearest t7 is. and how many problems there are underlying it. and things like relationships just serve to complicate matters. well, we're at the end of the journey~! haha! though i didn't walk to last half with u guys, i know that im a part of u all. THANKS! haha! and i love t7!

haha! but definitely, im starting to enjoy t1. :D thankfully, i have them with me through my toughest times. without you guys, i wouldn't have made it thru. so today's officially class thanking day! HAHA!

AND! just now, my ex piano teacher came! with her son whom i haven't really seen or spoken to since i was pri 4? totally miss those times when we would play after class. :D in your durian plantation. HAHA! one of the best days i must admit! well, yeap. now almost ten years along, i must say that he's seriously cute. if u put him in cj, he'll totally be the cutest! no wonder he got stalked everyday by many groups of girls! :D but well, it was quite embarrassing whn i was kinda sleeping on my sofa and they both walked in. utterly embarrassing! oh wells. like cel likes to say, WHAT'S NEW? HAHA!

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cel: NO WAY! mine had NO COLOUR. and it was funny. sweeny todd is just disturbing. you watched it alr anyway! so.. well, fantastic! HAHA! no need to watch alr! :D

sunday!

2008-02-03T23:15:00.000+08:00

BACK FROM LIT NIGHT. okay. passed 2 days alr. HAHA! but i conquered gothic films! only black and white ones only though. was so terrified! but it turned out to be super hilarious! now i know what mr glasgow meant by the difference in the definition of the gothic. cel, now i understand your love for lit. i love it too! :D

anyways.. went to my grandma's as usual. and my dearest godbrother came so late la. with weird hair! i said he look like those gatsby commercial guys! and he stared at me and went 'well, i used gatsby!' HAHA! super hilarious. i took a photo of him! next time la. i'll seriously miss him loads. LOADS. whn he's gone. the longest time i haven't seen him is like 1 mth? cos of army and all. without him i'll have no one to talk to and laugh with on sundays! fight for the tv, talk about our love lives or lack of! HAHA! emo times. and now u'll be gone for 5 mths plus! until ur birthday! at least that leaves me time to think of a good present! :D for now, i have to finish planning and making your farewell gift! while you're gone, must take care loads okay. LOVE!

tmr's another week. sighs. well, im seriously looking forward to cny. for a good rest. thn GO again! common tests coming up! and i totally miss my cousins! HAHA! pictures thn!

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na: OF COURSE I KNOW DARLING! haha. well, ... gen msged and sounded murderous. HAHA! u know what to do! OUTING SOON!

fright night!

2008-01-31T19:51:00.000+08:00

oh no! gahh! fright night's tmr! dreading it alot. ): not cos of dressing up and all lah. cos i don't really fancy horror shows. sighhs. dressing up just adds to my troubles! had jo go with me to town today to get some stuff. we visited tiffy at 2cm. haha! sorry if u got into trouble babe! anyway, we met my mom and went down to OG at people's park. to get something changed. thn headed home.

school has been so tiring these few days. or rather the past 2 weeks or so? so much work piling up and i can seriously feel the stress level rising. and it's only JAN!

i had normal pe session ytd and i ended up with very bad muscle ache! can't sit, can't stand, can't go up the stairs, can't go down the stairs. OH MANN. terrible cj pe! now i feel like a crippled old lady.

and i know my last post was rather emo. and stagnated. haha! thanks to those who tried to cheer me up! :D love!

unspeakables

2008-01-17T20:31:00.000+08:00

okay. this is not gna be a happy post. ): jo! i really miss you loads. being in the same class as you i think is a luxury. somehow u always make me feel listened to and i guess alive. i'll know that u'll be there for me. if i wanna get stuff, study or simply hang around and slack. i know u'll try ur best. minus those sleeping and wanna go home times.. and most of the time i don't need to think about what to say. it just flows. and that's why i love t7 so much. although we've problems along the way.. most of us actually do like each other. and we're really like a big family. being a little bimbotic with shaz, tiffy and steffi. talking about old times and orchard with anne! listening to milli's philosophical views. having heart to heart talks with fabian. suanning rosel all day long. grossing joyce out with my xiang gong! i always had something to smile about. at least i was kinda liked. could talk with the whole class. i miss t7 lots.

gosh. see me now. like a retard. and gen! i finally get what u mean. in sec 4 and all? sighs. i think retaining robs one of interesting-ness. makes me dull. or maybe i just can't understand. i'll keep trying. what else can i do? i don't want things to get worse. and i don't wanna leave regretting not even having like people to talk to for the whole year. i'll DIE!

it's these times that made me really regret and feel stupid. i couldn't even work hard for a few months. please just stab me. that few months caused me 2 years of anguish. that wasn't a rational choice. as the days go by i'm drained bit by bit. feeling the most insecure and confused i have been in years. honestly, i don't know what i'll do without the choir people. like ernest! im supposed to be consoled i guess!

mass pe

2008-01-15T23:13:00.000+08:00

had an afternoon session of mass pe ytd. the horror of it. okay.. im exaggerating. haha! it wasn't all that bad! we only had to run 8 rounds and do like weird sets. thank goodness for ting who ran with me! you're super fit ting! THANKS! and sets made my hair messy. hahaha! my newly cut hair + fringe. which is kinda screwed up now. super sad. looks weird! sometimes like a small girl. and other times i conclude that i actually seriously look better without fringe. as in pinned up lah. hahaha.. oh wells!

anyway, cel's birthday tmr. or in abot 40 mins. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DARLING! cher loves you lots lots lots! we'll be going out! and i hope you like your present. :D it's something that we can do together next time! HAHAHA!

finally went out with jo tdy! in the afternoon. met her at cj bus stop and bus-ed down to town. went to find that pencil case. at dfs. asked nicole for a suggestion and she suggested lesportsac. 39 bucks! i still can't bear to buy it. gimme a few more weeks. i think im reaching there! anyway, we walked arnd town finding cel's and tiffy's present. and! im officially broke for the week. which means i gotta tax my poor savings which are depleting at a horrific speed.

it's almost 1130. i think i should start doing my work. HAHA. super tired. gahhs. i never learn!

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dea: jamie makes me laugh. :D haha!

charmaine: heyy! okay la. not that bad. YET. i guess! but im kinda expecting things to get worse definitely!

cheryn: hello! reserve first okay. towards end of the year thn lend me! must store more. haha! im greedy! :D but thanks alot for the love!

JO: don't worry la jo! u know i'll just blab on and on whenever i talk! has it become a habit alr ah. as in like. listening to me blab. HAHA! 6 years leh! you're super hardcore. and egg roll curry rice is the LOVEEE!

xinglong: hahaha.. HI!

saturday!

2008-01-12T18:38:00.001+08:00

hohoho! i found a new show to watch! NODAME CANTABILE. jap :D so rocks. and thanks cel. hahaha!

met the choir ppl tdy. i really miss u guys LOADS! cj seems so quiet without u all laughing. ESPECIALLY my darling relative. haven't met drea for sucha long time. and i finally saw her tdy. been so long since i had a proper conversation with her! and of course much less reminisce about the old sjc times. and the big jokes like how those living near the school would ALWAYS have something to complain about. had a rather interesting conversation with her about her internship at sjc. i miss eggroll curry rice. and CHICKEN RICE. oh goshh. which leads me to say. i miss fiona lee too! HAHAHA! okayokay. shopping trip soon. i remember lah kay. :D

going out to study now. sat nights are good for studying at gdns. HAHA. and i think im gna go CHOMP CHOMP to eat soon! miss that place. :D

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jamie: HOHOHO! i thought i told you? well, i couldn't put it so blatantly lah! u all were suffering leh! and i did study! until i gave up at arnd 45 mins. HAHA! im nice okay! grins :D and yes i'll see you on monday. rmb to do gp readings. :/

in the lib!

2008-01-10T09:34:00.001+08:00

hello! im kinda skipping pe. and mr ho sent us to the library for the period. geog test later. yikes. totally unprepared! the only time i actually studied for it was on sat night. and i didn't even cover limestone and granite landforms. FANTASTIC! HAHA! lotsa lectures for today. had econs just now. lit and geog later on. gahhs!

and it's about time cher goes onto a no night snack diet too! along with ernest and cel. cel pls tell me that u didn't eat anything last night after going home! haha.. last night was kinda like a farewell dinner for bins? but more or less it just included of us having dinner at far east's chicken rice. somehow there's a very strong resemblance between bins and the hainanese chicken hanging on the rack. HOHOHO! went to kino in hope of finding the york notes for handmaid's tale but they don't carry it! we then headed on to find bins' army essentials and finally we were off to slacking arnd at our favourite coffee bean. :D BELGIUM CHOCOLATE lovee! pictures galore! :D wait till cel sends me or uploads it. hahhaa!

but things are seriously gna be very quiet! without bins and cel forever going on and on about how one looks like an ostrich and the other a puffer fish. i think this silence is gna seem deafening! hahaha. out of tune. can't wait till u all book out after 2 weeks! :D thn we can take more pictures. grinns.

i haven't done any shopping for cny clothings. and my saturdays are kinda taken up now. think im gna have to resort to that dress from guess kids. embarrassing! HAHAHA! what's new la. save money okay! and cher is in need of a fringe cut! HINTS!

this year seems to be passing really fast. even now. there's ptm on the 22nd of jan! that's like 2 weeks away? and ct's in week 10. and i haven't even started seriously studying. which im going to start doing by this week. super scary! guess my life's gna be more or less routinised for the year. sighhs! :D

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drea!: i missed you lots! where have you been? you really went back to sjc to teach? I MISS EGG ROLL CURRY RICE ADD CHICKEN! and the chilli sauce. HAHAHA! can i go and eat that soon?? we need to meet soon. and u know about the 4h gathering coming up right? where's mad's blog ah. lost the link again. gulps. heard that there's polling going on for the date and time.

alicia: hey! can u pls go set up a blog and stop mia-ing! dunno where u disappear to! haha!

cel: esprit shopping done! but our marina shopping not done yet! HAHA. i love shopping with you! HOHOHO!

sick!

2008-01-08T14:03:00.000+08:00

totally stayed home ytd and tdy cos of my stupid cough and flu. GAHH! as ernest would call it TB! HAHA! nonsense! i even took a jab last night. much better now. think i'll be in school tmr. THANKS JAMIE! :D

feel super childish these few days. know that everyone will be starting to go our own ways. but i know that we'll still meet up and all la. but i guess the feeling's gna be different. hahaha. like those ns guys will be going in alr. the only brother i ever felt i've had's leaving for sydney. oh wells!

bins: jiayou alot okay! and be a man! HAHAHA! don't miss cel too much. and i'll be nice and not suan you.
fabian: HELLO! i haven't talked to you for sooo long. maybe i'll see u tonight? :D see how! but all the way okayy! you have ur darling. and us. HAHA. lovees.
you: sometimes i really dunno what to say? but i guess it's the unspoken words that usually means alot. and just take care yah.

this yr's gna be complicated. with work, choir and lotsa pressures. but im sure i'll get thru it! I PROMISE I WILL STUDY CEL! i promise :D and i hope that we'll get to go to europe at the end of the year. we'll work hard okay! :D lovee!

school's tmr!

2008-01-01T22:50:00.001+08:00

ohmann. was so looking forward to the new year! BUT school's killing all my mood. roar!

ytd, cel, bins, ernest and yukang stayed over at my place! :D marcus left at 2am. haha. we kept playing tai tee to keep awake. until we were too tired to even move our hands! marcus cooked pasta for us! and it was rather successful! surprisingly. haha! cel and i were going a little mad throughout the night. and cel, you totally got suanned the whole night through!

with our insanity, we decided to wait for the sunrise at 5am. which came only at about 7. thn decided to go for morning run at 6! ran all the way to the playground at kang choo bin. SWING! thn see-sawed and walked back home. haha! that's how illogical and insane we were. me and cel couldn't take it any longer and ended up napping for half an hour! with the guys constantly making noise! asking us to go bathe. hahha. which we did. and thn it was their turn to ko. HAHA! by the time we left my house for breakfast, it was about 8am. walked all the way to heartland macs for breakfast. was so tired that i didn't want to cut my hotcakes. gahhs. met sean there surprisingly! and he gave me this weird look like i was mad. HAHAHA. but i was.

anyway, pictures on cel's blog! we split after breakfast. and i slept till 5! super tired. skipped lunch with cousins. cannot wake up! SORRY! alright! im gna go do some leftover homework! :D last min rocks la.

new yr!

2007-12-30T21:12:00.000+08:00

okay. im happy again. cos some people gna come my house to stay over! wheee! and it's almost the end of the year! considering that they'll be over tmr i shall post about this year tdy. :D

this year was seriously THE most sucky year in my life. lost lotsa stuff that kinda meant lots to me. gone thru lots of pressure and shitty things. BUT! well, i think that means i can get thru most things now. i definitely learnt how to be stronger. grinns. MANY MANY thanks to my frens for talking things out and being there for me! esp jo, cel, jamie and lately ernest! don't think i could've survived this yr without you all. :D i promise that i'll work doubly, triply hard next year for a's okay! thn i can go shopping in taiwan after. :D book alr hor!

anyway! i went shopping tdy! i think it's time to go esprit shopping! CEL! hint hint. haha! my clothes are getting predictable. and i feel fat. ): TIME TO DIET! seriously this time! felt fat whn trying on clothes. as in they make me look fat! conclusion: im fat! sighhs! okay. programme starts as of TDY! HOHOHO!

and my room is doneee! except for the painting. it's lovely! superbly pretty. think jap and zen. yahh! GRINNS! :D i promise to keep it nice and tidy.

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lene: i mean.. where's the goodbye msg to me? u still say i uber bestie! TSK! ): and thanks. for saying i have a pretty face. but i highly doubt so!

as usual

2007-12-28T19:27:00.000+08:00

whenever this comes up, im bound to quarrel with them. i don't know what it is with them. so they want me to stay at home and wait for them to return like a little puppy dog. go get a dog then. im a freaking person. half the time no one is at home. and if i have to eat dinner alone at home, i won't be surprised. and when i go out for dinner, more or less i'll get scolded or yelled at when i reach home.

you complain that my frens are my priority. what's yours? WORK. doesn't it balance out? you have your life and i have mine. when i was growing up you just threw me there. now that im grown, you try to control everything i do, wanting me to give you all my attention. isn't it a little too late? im no longer that little girl that has to depend on you for everything. why does everyone love controlling me so much. you always try to compare me with the quietest people. do i seem like one to you? you ask me if my life is that miserable. YES IT IS. there's freaking no one to talk to me at home. it's just the walls.

don't forget that im already 18. im like some loser who always can't stay out. like some guai little girl. as if my looks are not causing me enough anguish. can't you trust me. can't you trust someone you brought up. im not going to go off galavanting. it's just a freaking countdown. and no party at that. JUST LOOK AT THE FREAKING FIREWORKS damn.

party!

2007-12-25T23:19:00.000+08:00

have i ever mentioned how much i love my cousins! though i might be mean! HAHA. but today's 8-man asshole tie tee rocked! HOHOHO! christmas season lah!

cousins from my mom's side arrived first. played with zhiyin. watched some shows online. and told him about my ever eventful life. thn ate a super scrumptous dinner! damn good spread! lalala~!

received several presents from my aunts. :D my cousin gave me a bottle of perfume. grinns. anyway! my stupid cousin michael was trying to win the game time and again, failing most of the time! and apparently the fengshui was the best at the sofa where me and edwin sat. YEAHH! :D mary shd come play with us. more funn!

can't believe they gave way to me. whn i kept pleading! finally feel the bond between my cousins! the one tt i was looking for all these years. all thanks to me okay! who kept pushing on for bonding and all. grinns! but seriously love you all lah. AND, we must carry on the tradition okay! even whn we're really old and have family and children of our own. must still meet up to play cards! LOVEE!

christmas!

2007-12-25T14:24:00.000+08:00

my favourite holiday. seriously! even though my family kinda stop giving gifts. haha! but i still like the whole feeling. :D

over the past few days had a rather eventful life. hahaha. cel came back on sunday night! missed you loads my dear! seems weird not having you around to talk. haha! anyway, went to watch ACJC's carolling performance at the esplanade lobby. watching them makes u feel super KB! cos they're just too good. thinking about cj choir makes things a little hard to compare. not even mentioning musical quality. basic attitude is not even present. practice again on the 27th. it's time to make some changes. anyway, i kinda pissed ernest off during the performance! he wasn't feeling very happy alr and i went on about how this AC guy was super cute! sorry la. but he was really rather cute! NJ choir was quite a let down though. we ran back to raffles city and golt disappointed. oh wells!

yesterday was ms lee's wedding! pictures with cel. so gotta wait till she's home from her party! maybe we'll go to her house to bake tmr! HOHOHO! went to dinner at thai express bistro at raffles with the choir ppl after singing for ms lee's wedding. she was really beautiful! seriously, a woman looks super pretty on her wedding day la. puts me in a good mood after attending her wedding! anyway, happened to meet don! HAHA! surprise! asked him where's tiffany and he pointed to his heart. HERE! too mushy alr la don!

after ordering, me and my darling cel went shopping arnd for some last min presents. it was seriously last min. bought my mom a gift. couldn't find bedroom slippers for my grandmother though! robinsons and marks and spencers all closed! cel wanted to find a pair of oven gloves but err.. couldn't find it too! when we finally found a shop tt sells bedroom slippers and oven gloves they cost 32 and 19 respectively! didn't buy it obviously!

dinner was filled with lame jokes and abit of ghost stories. gahhs. had to leave soon after to make it in time for midnight mass. thanks to ernest for going with me! much more entertaining than travelling myself. :D true? HAHA!

went to church and met jo and jolyn. in time for carolling. well, listening to AC and CJ.. my church choir still lacks alot. zachary! you gotta be more dramatic pls. dunno what u doing there la! hahaha! we took some pictures of ourselves during carolling. thn it was mass. saw lotsa ppl around church! missed those sec 2 times la! i know i saw the whole group of ZJ ppl. thn people like hazel, margaret and carolyn. saw sylvia too! :D

long post! to end it off, MERRY CHRISTMAS! gotta go get busy for party tonight. lovee!

choir-ing lifestyle

2007-12-20T12:34:00.000+08:00

choir has kinda become my life i realised. nothing bad about it i guess. (: finally had carolling ytd at stb. wasn't good at all. sighhs! i think out of tune has become an understatement. i guess we've all got alot to learn. the exco's abit at fault too yeah. for being too nice. and part of the problem obviously lies with me being overly lenient. got pissed off and ended up skipping lunch! and that's super major to me!

anyway, after the performance, we left rather abruptly. didn't hear the other performers. 2 of them were so good! i'm yours by jason mraz was super good la. we (meaning me, ernest, bins, yukang, mario, marcus, cheryn, janis along with mr toh and the teachers) went to the hotel, the regent just opposite stb. had a piece of cake which costs 10 bucks! delicious! :D and the second picture shows the miniature pot of tea which fills only 2 cups each time u refill. i think we pissed the waitress off. HAHA. that little thing costs 12 bucks. geee. must really thank ms lee who paid for us!

went to cine after that for cheryn's lunch! dunno if u're on the plane to bali alr! but enjoy urself alright! :D make some lemon barley. haha!

after cheryn left we went to play pool at kpool. mario went home to change some stuff. hahaha. so me, ernest, bins and yukang played pool where i lost terribly! was toooo hungry. dinner at cine food court thn to coffee bean for a long chat. rather long la. thn took mrt to amk to take 136 home. YEAPP! long day ytd.

i'm glad that i found sucha good friend in you! we how tight! thanks alot too! hahaha.

AND I MISS YOU MY DEAR RELATIVE! hurry home cel! miss retarded talks with you!
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syl: haha! i went to korea! :D and how's the shows!
cel: can change censored words ah! i didn't know that.. haha. retardedness.
na: terrible na! how can spell my name wrongly! tsk. and i highly doubt we skiied past each other! but i saw ur photo album on facebook! and saw lotsa similar places :D
meiqi: i'll update abt korea another day! too long. hahaha..
xinglong: korea!
qg: hey. don't feel too bad la. it's okay ya! haha. :D

leaving!

2007-12-06T23:07:00.000+08:00

leaving tmr at about 10?
so gotta leave my house at abt 8.
don't miss me okay!
HAHA..
but i'll miss lotsa ppl!
esp cel and jo.
haven't seen jo for sucha long time and seriously missing her.
and im not gna see cel till 24th!
how sad can this get!

anyway i had lotsa fun these few days!
totally late for bball ytd.
but so fun at cel's house la. (:
kbox today with cel bins and ernest!
it's totally fun!
dinner at hk cafe!
thn shopped arnd for my travel stuff.
bought a pair of sport shoes from adidas.
grinns.

okay.
i'll really miss you all lots.
back on the 16th okay.
lovee.

outing!

2007-11-30T00:04:00.000+08:00

busy day today. went out in the early afternoon thn went to pick my mom from sgh. had to wait till like 5.30/6 before she would leave. too many ppl to talk to! and tsk! those ppl keep piling work! i almost died carrying the bags of documents!

went to meet cel and bins! super fun la. we had thai express for dinner :D me and cel took photos while waiting for the bill! and it was hilarious cos the waitress had to disturb us twice to get us first to pay thn get the change. haha! how embarrassing! and that's our bill. $38.60!

couldn't get the tennis court at cel's house so we decided to play pool! as usual :D sorry lina! we play with you another day kay. we walked all the way from dhoby! and took lightings along the whole way! super pretty lightings. :D i love christmas! wqb was being irritating and trying to stop us from taking photos! and it's not embarrassing especially when there were so many people taking photos! tt christmas tree is at PS! rather pretty!

anyway, today me and cel super on form! we almost won wqb if not for the white ball which went in with the black? HAHA(: it's okay cel! we'll train real hard! getting it alr! see the second picture? wqb was solid! and we actually cleared the table 3 balls ahead of him! YAYY! :D

i love these days! wished i finished my a's. sighhs. and brings back too many memories! which don't make me very happy. oh wells. choir tmr. gp tuition. thn bbq at andre's. RAHH. schedule's too packed! and next week's kinda full! i haven't even packed my luggage. yawnns.

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lene: are you okay spaghetti! what happened? isit martin? is everything alright? just went to tag you and ur latest entry didn't sound very happy. did IT happen??
cel: yesyes! unlimited things to say! true. very very true! you make me very happy! grinns. :D
charm: uh huh. yupp. prob snowing. cos im going skiing.

sec 1 camp over!

2007-11-27T21:20:00.000+08:00

it feels super good to have one less thing to worry about! so much problems came up! like poor jo had food poisoning! and corde came down with gastric flu. and terrence had a family problem. and calista had exams! oh mann. it was a miracle we pulled it off! hope you're feeling better my dear jo! and take your medicine on time okay. thanks for coming down nevertheless. i don't know what i'ld have done without you!

and im sorry for the trouble ryan. gahhs. i apologise dunno how many times alr la. hahah. shall not cont! might get irritating. :D

other than the many many problems, was rather fun la. made new frens like kenneth! thank you thank you! for staying up with me! and entertaining me with scissors paper stone. and chopsticks! you rock la(: and also thanks for not admitting you were tired. (: saw you sleeping during games la!

and i love my LOGS team. thanks :D though michael took 2 hours to mop floor. i dunno what mop dance u keep doing also. pls rmb that mop is to MOP FLOOR not dance okay. and not to sweep floor also. dunno how u do that! must be special skill!

so tired! gna meet cel tmr to see dance school. YAYNESS.

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charm: hey. im gg to korea. yupp!
qg: no la. just some thoughts. okay only. not all that fantastic!

holidays officially

2007-11-24T18:01:00.000+08:00

okay!
holidays have officially started!
with my job OVER (:

-
had novena as usual today with cel!
thn brunch with cel and marcus
at the CHICKEN RICE EMPIRE!
thank you for being so corrupted marcus!
HAHAA!
he helped us like get lotsa discount! (:

and 2 photos from cooking session at my darling cel's house!

presenting songyao and bins MARKETING!
sji guys doing marketing is just funny! HAHAHA..

-
met jamie my koala in town on tues!
MISS YOU SO MUCH!
haven't seen u since my birthday last yr. (:
and u're getting prettier my dear!
totally tai-tai-ish!
HAHAHHAA!

just outside paragon.
i bet u must've been buying super expensive stuff!
we must go shopping!
i was looking at a jane shilton wallet! (:
grinns.

-
concert tmr at vch at 2.
anyone interested?
PLS SAY YES..
only 6 tix so far.
how sad la!

-
thanks alot NA!
love you lots lots lots.
i hope u have lotsa courage ltr okay!
i want a brother-in-law by tonight~!
and SHOPPING soon pls!
and cam-whoring sessions.
with morning jogs.
LOVEEE!

-
thank goodness jo came over to help with the badges today.
jo's the best!
HAHAHA..
yay jo. grinns!
and im gna go play maple!
BYEBYE PEOPLE!

-
JO: i really dunno what i'll do without you! think i would have died! thanks alot babe. you're the best la. (:
sylvia: hey! im fine la. just occasionally emo-ings! see you in church!
meiqi: hello! thanks la. i know u'll be there! (: study soon okay!
NA: fiona lee! i lend u my courage for tonight! better do it~! loveee. huggs!

my world crumbles

2007-11-19T20:40:00.000+08:00

haven't blogged as usual
getting quite tired
work drains my energy
while problems in choir are endless
and THE OTHER PROBLEM that worries me so much

-
went to cel's house ytd
with bins and songyao
hilarious cooking time
and songyao's quite a good cook!
surprisingly !
i must say that it kinda took my mind off stuff.
for awhile.

-
old memories are starting to haunt me again.
everything's crumbling.
sometimes i just wanna lock myself away and cry
thn i'll rmb someone saying
what's the use of crying whn it solves nothing.
and i get a jolt to bring me back to reality.

-
i don't know what im doing anymore.
i don't know if what i did and am doing is right
i don't wanna let everyone down
ruin everything that we have worked for so long.
the pressure of that is THAT great whn u see everything start to fall apart right before your eyes.

-
i think i shdn't exist
will help alot.
think lotsa ppl are gna appreciate it.

-
and my week's packed full again.
sorry!
gen, na: pls try to find another day. i've got camp on monday and tuesday

-
that loneliness is coming back agn.
i detest it.
everyone's ONCE AGAIN starting to go their own way
this time it's probably the last time.
if it's of any consolation that is.
our lives probably won't cross anymore.
it kinda hurts not to have someone there for you at the end of the day.
missed that feeling for a long time.
sucks badly.

-
shaz: thanks alot! u know so many times i feel like so weird! like part of t7 yet not. HAHA. wells. hmms. i love you too shaz!

tired out!

2007-11-08T10:35:00.000+08:00

hellos.
have been so busy.
choir + working not a good combination!
hahaha!
but i have to admit my job's pretty fun!
grinns. ((:

-
went out with andre and corde after work ytd
went to vivo for dinner
thn to st. theresa's for mass with andre's family (my extended family!)
fr arro said the mass in LATIN.
and i didn't understand a word of it.. -.-
HAHHAA..
oh wells!

thn everyone went to singapore cricket club
kinda hilarious cos i was going high!
whn im tired i usually get high..
hahaha!
which kinda irritates everyone!
but it was kinda funny la
until even i KO-ed.

-
going off to class chalet soon.
hope it turns out okay..
gulps.
lotsa things lahh.
HMMS!

-
meiqi: HUGGS! go again one day okay! DOTA!
tiffy: tiffannyyy! i miss you loads loads loads )): shall we ?? go shopping la.. haaha. after ur exams okay! before u go back to indon? (: and yesyes! i'll mug REALLY hard! EVERYTHING A! MUAHAHA. love you loads tiffyy!

EMO ):

2007-11-01T00:17:00.001+08:00

guess being alone does lotsa things to me.
makes me think too much for onee.

i know i lost my other side.
to retaining and all.
if u once hung by a thread, you'll hold on tight when you see a rope.
if u get what i mean..

this year, i hardly spoke
miracle to me.
but i guess, even if i could i wouldn't.
i wouldn't know what to say.

one more year to go.
can i honestly say that im not looking fwd to it.
i lost most of the stuff i have.
though this year seemed so short,
i lost enough.
couldn't they have been spread over the years?
at least that'll be less painful.

i hate it whn im alone and it's quiet.
cos that's whn reality hits.
SHOULDER! where are you??
hurry up back here!
and pls tell me you got promoted!

IM BACK!

2007-10-27T00:32:00.000+08:00

hello hello!
have been like MIA for the longest time!
grinns.

-
promos are over. (kinda long ago actually!)
and im promoted!
phews.
gotta get ready for a year of gruelling work next year.
and congrats to ben and shiting too!
we'll see each other next yr yah.

-
have been so bored these 3 days.
haven't stepped an inch out of home. ):
thanks goodness for jewellery making!
or else i'll be really bored.
gulps!

-
rosie's bday gathering this sun!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY like a few days in advance!
grinns.
don't say i don't care abt you ah!

-
made up my mind.
not like it will make a difference.
my only wish is that it's me.
and, i miss you.

-
charm: open house was alright.. quite quiet. considering tt o's were kinda approaching. gulps.

cel: YESYES! updated! (: i can't wait for ur exams to end dear! miss you loads!

exhausted!

2007-10-08T21:48:00.000+08:00

finally understood the meaning of exhaustion!
spent the day literally running arnd school
doing things for open house

publicity comm
noticeboard
newsletter

yupp. until like 6 plus?
THN! had to go down to bras basar to check out printing shops
guess what?
all closed):
so so tired.
just got home only!
my own fault i guess
for leaving everything to the end.
rahhs.

-
meiqi: sorry hunney. prob not this week. super busy!

math!

2007-10-03T15:01:00.000+08:00

oh goshh.
last paper and im totally unmotivated.
not in the least bit okay.
darnn.
HMMS!

-
went to study/practice math with jamie and sean ytd
quite funny!
everything was funny!
HAHAHA.
some SR guy was luffing at me!
cos of my laughter!
GOT SO FUNNY AHH!
hahaha!
thn on the spur of the mmt
we just went into sakae to makan dinner
talked about lotsa stuff for quite awhile.
enjoyable!

-
sacrificed going for k with jerry and ryan.
stabs.
damn sad lahh!
hope they go again soon.
all for math.
GRRS!

-
and i found new bead shops!
YAYYS!
gna go check it out on sat.
grinns. ((:
sooo wanna buy stuff!

-
rosiee: huh! u bought smth for me? so thoughtful! haha. what's it? a pigg? haha!

craving

2007-10-01T14:58:00.000+08:00

HOHOHO!
haven't updated for the longest time!
promos are almost over!
liberation!
HAHA.
lit's tmr.
h1 math is on thurs.

-
totally mesmerised by what cocoquettes.livejournal.com sells.
SERIOUSLY OKAY!
they're like fabulously pretty(:
kinda got hooked onto viewing trinkets and sorts.
WHN IM SUPPOSED TO BE READING BNW!
oh wells. (:

-
went out with ryan and jerry on fri night.
it was omg hilarious!
HAHAHA..
check out my matching pipes((:

-
rosiee: no lahhs. not ur first! don't be so demoralised! (:
cel: i do random stuff all the time. HAHA. weirdd though. there were sooo many doggies. CUTE(:
charm: haha. take ur time to explore. it's rather fun! i think..
meiqi: YESYES my audition partner-pro! HAHAHA! end of promos means more cca. our problems starting i predict! HAHA. but more time to play! (: grinns! JY!

fun weekend!

2007-09-23T22:43:00.000+08:00

did i mention tt gp paper was GROSS..
goshh.
SIGHS!

-
spent a super fun weekend.
irony tt it's promos week!
feels like i actually have a life!
HAHA!

SAT:
went to novena with darling choee
breakfast as usual..

thn went to botanic gdns to study!
CONDUCIVE okay..
got loads of postcards!

THN THN THN!
i went to my ex piano teacher's house.
my childhood piano teacher..
used to play with her 2 sons
always the reason i look forward to piano lessons..
AND!
both of them like 20 and 22 liddat now?
time really flies kay!
used to play loads with them!
esp with the younger brother..
AND DID I MENTION
the younger brother super cute now!
HAHAHA!
miraculously okay!
last time so fat!
missed them loads seriously..

now comtemplating whether not to go back there for piano.
means i gotta take classical again.
needs lots of discipline.
gulps!

-
today was spent with the usual ppl.
went to celebrate jacinta's birthday BELATED at cafe cartel.

thn went with andre, corde and andre's family to GIANT! in tampiness.
HAHAHA.
FUN!
anne marie and anton are super fun lahh~!

family came over for mooncake festival.
had a talk with aunt about clubbing.
GOSH.
someone in my family actually clubs.
((:

-
you know smth?
facebook's really fun!
HAHAHA!

-
marcus: THANKS.. (: really! grinns.
NANA: na~! i don't wanna study alr! CRIES! i wanna go out)):
meiqi: WHEE! hahaha! ((: meiqi! i got smth to ask you. will ask you the next time i see you! (:
cel!: CONGRATS DARLING! so proud of you! (:
zac: im sorry bro. but what did i tag you ah? read ur blog for my tag. or msg me. HAHA. friday sentosa. WANT?

baby shaun!

2007-09-18T21:01:00.001+08:00

SO EXCITING!
joyce just msged me and told me baby shaun's born!
at 1102am!
HELLO BABY SHAUN!
you're sure gna be a geography genius!

2T07!
im gg along for baby shaun visitations!
omg!
so excited!
i've been (!) everything.. HAHA..

CONGRATS MRS TAN! ((:

this brings out the maternal instincts lahh.
i so wanna have a child suddenly pls.
SO CUTE!
maternal instincts..
IM DEFINITELY GNA HAVE A CHILD NEXT TIME.
DEFINITELY!

pitter patter

2007-09-17T22:11:00.000+08:00

things don't always go the way i want them to.
make that always don't.
thanks jamie for sorting my thoughts out.
i'll take awhile to get used to it.
but i promise i'll CHILL.

SHOUT AT ME
TELL ME YOU HATE ME
stop me from living in this dream.

2007-09-17T20:12:00.001+08:00

zac, say you're proud of me.
this is specially done for you!

1) The person who tagged you- ZAC
2) Your relationship with him/her is- bro & sis / sis & sis? i can't decide.. ((:
3) 5 impressions you have on him/her- caring + RICH *ka-chingg!* + ______ (ask me yourself if u wanna know.. im being nice!) + always being there for me no matter when + thoughful!
4) The most memorable thing that he/she has done for you- going all the way down to town from clementi! i love you bro!
5) The most memorable words he/she has said to you- i'm just 8 numbers away my dear sis!
6) If he/she becomes your lover- INCEST says it all. impossible is next on the list. (:
7) If he/she becomes your lover things to improve on- ask me yourself too. HAHA. but i think u know what im gna say lahh! HEEZ!
8) If he/she becomes your enemy- we used to quarrel ALOT! oh wells. i'll lose a great bro! DON'T BECOME MY ENEMY OKAY.. )):
9) If he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be- i did smth super wrong!
10) The most desirable thing you want to do with him/her now is- go to the beach and CHILL.
11) Your overall impression of him/her is- lovable!
12) How do you think the people around you feel about you- ehhs. depends who lah. haha..
13) The characteristic you like about yourself- being able to laugh things off when it gets hurting or sad.
14) The characteristic you hate about yourself- i always appear stupid! GRRS!
15) The most ideal person you want to be with now is- ERR! HAHA! that's for me to fascinate. (:
16) For people that care and like you, say something to them- THANKS FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE FOR ME. though i might no say or show it often.. i do appreciate and care kay? (:
17) Pass this quiz to 10 people that you wish to know how they feel about you
1. JO!
2. jamie(:
3. cel!
4. joyce(:
5. FIONA!
6. LENE!
7. tiffy(:
8. steffi(:
9. rosel(:
10. meiqi(:

-Who is no.6 having a relationship with? martin. HAHA
-What's no.9's gender? female.
-If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing? HUH. it's so wrong. and 7's attached!
-What is no.2 studying? same as me? HAHA..
-When was the last time you had a chat with no.3? SAT!
-What kinda music does no.8 like? jazz i think!
-Does no.1 has any siblings? yupp! 1 sister
-Will you woo no.3? YES! I LOVE YOU CEL! ((:
-How about no.7? haha.. don's much better. (:
-Is no.4 single? sadly yes. )): HURRY UP XIANG GONG!
-What's the surname of no.5? lee!
-What's the hobby of no.4? spamming music? arcade? watching vcds. playing with junior.. i dunno alr!
-Do no.5 and 9 get along well? they dunno each other.. but i donubt they will.. hmms. sorry manns.
-Where is no.2 currently studying at? CJC!
-Say something casual about no.1. caring!
-Have you tried developing feelings for no.8? err. nope? sorry steffi!
-Where does no.9 live? a tulip road place. CONDO I KNOW! sorry rosie! nv go ur house before!
-What colour does no.4 like? i have no idea.. blue? black?
-Are no.5 and 1 close friends? YES! HAHA!
-Does no.7 like no.2? ehhs. they don't know each other..
-How did you get to know no.2? we're classmates.. ((:
-Does no.1 have any pets? yupp! 1 hamster, 1 rabbit
-Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world? YES! tiffy's sexy! and pretty! don'll agree with me(: grinns.

SO THAT WAS IT.
congratulate me!

-
studied with jo-ann and jo-lyn today at macs till about 6?
thn went to bind geog notes. FINALLY!
yayness!
on to lecture 7 & 8 ((:
5 more days to battle
and 2 weeks more to liberation.
what can i say?

-
im addicted to desperado
resung by westlife.

Now it seems to me, some fine things

Have been laid upon your table

But you only want the ones that you can't get

Desperado, why don't you come to your senses?

Come down from your fences, open the gate

It may be rainin', but there's a rainbow above you

You better let somebody love you, before it's too late

charm: haha! yah! it's niceeee. GRINNS.

zac: YES! are u free on 28th sept? we're gg in to sentosa. me corde andrea and jo. call ryan and jerry too! WHEE!

torn

2007-09-16T13:30:00.000+08:00

there's like never ending stuff to do.
grrs.
piles of readings waiting to be read
tons of lecture notes waiting to be memorised
loads of emails waiting to be sent out.
whn does it even end?

-
i really wanna go to world youth day!
logically, i shouldn't..
but i want to lahh!
grrs!
darnn A's.
always causing me problems.
SIGHS!

-
fantastically
i turned down going to chinatown or arab street for beads.
CRIES!
oh no..
totally missed out on buying nice beads pleaseee..
just for sending emails.
and my darling geog readings.
stabs.

-
let's just get promos over with yah.
thn i'll have a better life.
that includes sentosa visits!
and trips to buy stuff with CORDE!
and my dear jo will finish her a's soon!
thn we can all go out. ((:
just 3 more weeks.
YES PIGGY!

-
syl: HAHA! yupp there is. next week too! tt joseph musical's real nice. i always can't get it's full name. joseph and the amazing technicolour coat i think! HEEHEE!

cel: i wanna watch! many many movies! esp ratatouille. )): so sad lahhs. most everyone watched it alrr. darn! must buy many many cds alr. and i love the skin too! NICE NICE!

zac: can i not do? very long! u wait for me awhile thn i do kayy. (:

joyce: YES! nice skin i know! haha! err, orange words.. if u don't understand it, thn not for you! HAHAHA..

things i wanna say to you

2007-09-14T11:43:00.000+08:00

HEY!
i haven't been blogging for sooo long.
stress of promos. GRRS.
fell abit sick so here i am(:

-
i've got so much i wanna tell you
but i don't know how to best tell you
so you won't get the wrong picture and idea
just remember that im not stalking you.
HAHA. joking joking.
okay. but seriously,
don't worry about how others will judge you.
you're not afraid of whether or not others will judge you
you're afraid that others will judge you negatively..
if they judge you positively i don't think u'll be afraid right.. (:
mostly everyone gets judged.
it's so hard not to judge.
can you do it yourself? not to judge?
it's hard. we can all try but it's still hard.
if we ourselves do judge, we'll know how hard it is not to judge..
even though it's not right..
merely telling you not to be afraid or be bothered would be of no use i know
but know that u're not despised or hated.
i know u'll rather hear it from someone else
but wells. at least i do not despise you yah.
you should be the best that YOU can be.
not how others want to see you be.
if you try to please everyone, you'll end up confused and hurt at the end.
and i really don't want to see that.
if u really open yourself up,
you'll find that u really will have close frens.
if you allow them to be.
i know the difference between feelings and friendship.
and i know where i stand.
so don't worry kay.
i've known you for so many years.
and i promise
i'll always be here for you.
as a fren definitely.
and u can be sure

super sian

2007-09-04T19:59:00.000+08:00

GRRS.
studying is becoming SO MUCH of a chore.
even essay outlines require ploughing through.
SAVE ME!

-
rather than studying..
(tsktsk!)
piggy cher went to make SALSA instead!
at jojo's house.
HAHAHA!
we rock lah.
super nice pls. ((:

-
school until wed.
thn i really have HOLIDAYS!
but what's hols with promos?
CRIES!

-
sorry cel.
i really wanted to watch that..
but i had to redo notes):
would feel super guilty if i didn't replace my notes
but went to watch movie instead.
next time watch okay?
as in another show lah.

-
if it is a dream
i don't want this dream to end
don't wake me up.

-
meiqi: yesyes): HOW?

todayy!

2007-09-01T19:38:00.000+08:00

HELLO! yawnns.
feeling abit tired.
gotta get down to studying! grrs.

-
bought isaac's present with cel today
after novena.
HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY ISAAC!
HOHOHO!

went for facial after that.
forehead like scarred.
FOR NOW.
thn i'll be pretty! :D HAHAHA!
-.-

thn went to tangs trying to buy this guess watch.
75 bucks.
SOLD OUT OKAYYE. :(
so sad!

-
my new timetable is like GRRS!
monday is like go school for what??
i go school 1st period and last period.
in between 3 hrs break.
what joy.
darnn.
OH WELLS.
study piggy! STUDY!

tired

2007-08-31T19:15:00.000+08:00

super bored with studying.
burn out alr.
the year in general.
grrs.
dunno how im gna pull myself to study
but i will.
RAHH!

-
supposed to go buy paper bags with the other 2/5 of the exco
but obviously teacher's day isn't a very good choice..
HAHAHA.
oh wells.
push on.

-
meiqi: YES. it got really dirty again. i think im super unmotivated to clean board alr. grrs. HAHA!
qingguang: yeah. good luck thn.
syl: HELLO! hahaha! ((:
cel: YESYESYES! i miss you )): lots. infinity! study hard my dear relative!
fiona: STUDY! must! leave it aside i guess? prelims are much more impt! don't care tt lousy guy! TSK! prelims more impt okay?

tiredd

2007-08-25T23:15:00.000+08:00

retreat's draining.
at least i made new frens lahh.
like clare, benjamin.
HAHA!

-
i miss you.
i really do.
and it's driving me nuts.
tell me, isit me?
or do you treat everyone the same?

-
lots of things to do.
work piling to the heavens.
SERIOUSLY.
choir + promos is not a good combination.
BUT!
i'll get thru this.
IM SURE I CAN!
piggy power all the way yo!

-
meiqi: YAH! we shd do it more often. it's getting a teeny bit dirty. HEEHEE. a bit of perfection goes a long way(:
monkey: NEH NEH LAH! u wanna be my SLAVE also ah! grrs. and im not a creature! HAHAHA!

weekends!

2007-08-17T22:03:00.000+08:00

it's the weekends!
wheee~!
hahhaa..
super tired out.
had church meeting till 10 last night.
thn had to study for geog test.
LAST MIN WORK sucks. )):
and can u believe it..
i forgot to eat dinner :/
wah sehh!
miracle okay.

-
jamie didn't come school today.
miss you loads lah. (:
and nicolelow got donuts! grinns.

-
it seems to be working out rather fine.
an illusion?
or are my dreams coming true?
tell me that there's still hope.
hope, chance, you get the idea.
make my day or life rather, won't you?

-
choir today.
and yah..
hmms.
HAHA.
it happened. (:

-
cel: YES! let's go enlist! ((:
na: okay alr! GRINNS. fever only lah! (:
meiqi: board cleaning buddy! nice arms we will have mann. HEH!
tiffy: YESYES! come come. we must take bus again! totally hilarious. hahhaa.
xinglong: nope. enlisting is good for you.

sick

2007-08-14T15:46:00.001+08:00

GRRS!
sick agnn.
can't believe this lah.
i think cj has a high germ content! TSK!
HAHAHA.
anywayy
can't believe tt marcus got out! )):
BOO! LOUSYY!!
how cann?
he sings so well lah!
and he's one of the better looking ones alr!

-
wtaching bao jia wei guo now. -.-
HAHA.
watch alr feel like enlisting sia!
if fail a levels i go enlist alr lah!
thn i'll be super fit! HA! ((:
and no one can call me piggyyy!
muahahaha!
CEL~!
we go enlist kay! (:

happier

2007-08-10T23:23:00.000+08:00

hey! (:
happier now.
another lesson learnt i guess?
super many things to learn ahh.
HAHA.

-
THANKS TO SAMUEL for croatian rhapsody!
and helping me to find andante in c.
THANKS ALOT! ((:

-
had a superr long day.
started out with studying session with jo!
thn surprise party for jo! ((:
SUCCESS OKAY OZY.
HAHA.
anyway..
we played car racing and halo
attempted to drift.
we are all noobs lah!
thn went out with gen and jo.
AND FINALLY
scalp treatment at heartland.

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Let the world stop turning
Let the sun stop burning
Let them tell me love's not worth going through
If it all falls apart
I will know deep in my heart
The only dream that mattered had come true
In this life, I was loved by you

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samfoo: it's not supposed to be a secret! ((:
marcus: thanks alot. (: really appreciate it. thought it was SOO lame. HAHA! (:
tiff: TY! i give you $$ on monday(: you must have had fun! with don(:
cel: yeah. hmms. i'll cheer up. piggy power all the way! i'll hang in there.
meiqi: thanks. i know you care. (:
JO: you're welcomee! i love you too! grinns. glad u enjoyed urself. main aim. (:

lost

2007-08-08T18:58:00.000+08:00

okay. gna be one emo entry.
i never felt so lost and ignored in my life.
seriously.
i never thot there would be a day when i couldn't fit in.
but wells.
now's the time?

ignored to the extreme.
i dunno what to say.
i don't understand and neither do you guys.
that's why i prefer running away.
if doesn't hurt that much.
escapism is a solution too
though a not so great one i know.

there's still a year plus more to go
i don't know if i can take it
but i guess i don't have a choice do i?
when things all seem to go awry
regret fills me again.

this time TRUELY
no one cares anymore.
reached the end of the road i guess.
serves me right.

flowers

2007-08-06T22:01:00.001+08:00

OKAY!
had lessons until 6.
tiring pls!
geog extra class.
after pe.
HAHA.
which was rather okay. for once.
cos it was badminton. ((:

-
went to heartland with sean again.
for the MISSION.
HAHAHA.
funny lah.
the whole thing is like hilarious.
yeah. tmr u'll know why.

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We were strangers, starting out on a journey
Never dreaming, what we'd have to go through
Now here we are, I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me, I was going to find you
Unexpected, what you did to my heart
When I lost hope You were there to remind me
This is the start

Knew there was somebody somewhere
I need love in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing is going to tear us apart

In the end
I want to be standing
At the beginning
WITH YOU

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zac: haha! okay okay! thanks for having breakfast with me. I HAD BREAKFAST WITH ZAC ON SUNDAY! HAHA!

big sis: haha! i like pink too! but i don't think i wanna drive a pink car. later scratch i will cry! ): heart pain. haha.

whee

2007-08-05T18:18:00.000+08:00

look at this pls!

omg lah!

tt's like my dream car.

DROOLS! ((:

now you know what's my dream car.

HAHAHA.

ytd and today

2007-08-05T12:37:00.001+08:00

parents out of town for the weekend.
hahaha.
so wasted lahhs.
anywayy
went out with my aunt for dinner at airport!
(after novena and studying with cel and lunch and shopping with jojo)
we ate popeye's (!!)
super good okay.
the cajun mashed potatoes are heavenly.
SHALL WE ALL GO ONE DAY?
hahaha.
she drove me to ecp after tt
took a walk arnd the jetty.
omg lah.
my childhood is pathetic.
nv gone there before pls!
but it was sooo romantic.
HAHAHA..
super lots of couples making out. -.-
and s'pore's BR is low? omg lah.

-
just came home from church.
catechism class nv fails to drain me and leave me with a splitting headache.
GRRS.
can't u ppl just be kinder to me.
and not just try means and ways to run away. -.-
when u obviously know it's not gna work
it just makes me doubt whether i have what it takes to cont as a youth cate

-
planned next 3 weeks' sessions with corde and jojo.
RAHHS lahh.
thanks alot corde for helping.
we're planning smth for nat'l day.
dunno if we're gna go down with u though.
zac asked me too.
HAHAHA.
maybe youth cates shd go down together?
or andre's house?
DUNNO LAH.

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joyce: no lah! just wanted to change blog url to smth tt sounds better. HAHA.
meiqi: HUGGS! hahaha! go update ur blog lah! nothing!
cel: are u serious. did they like start without u two. found another of us. blur ones! ((: just like u me and pamela. HAHA.
bran: OMG! i miss you my shoulderr! are u okay.. wahhs. see principal? how was it? did it go super badly? MSG ME! tell me.. and pls studyy! must! promos are coming u knoww. and i know u deleted the blog long ago lah. im kinda lazy to clean up. GO SET UP A NEW BLOG SHOULDER. like theshoulder.blogspot.com or smth. HURRY! and i miss my shoulderrr! )):

choir

2007-08-03T20:23:00.000+08:00

choir today.
super scary experience.
im not like used to taking charge musically.
i can hear but im not very confident.
need ppl to assure me that im right sometimes.
panicks!

taking combined was all the worse.
what are the chances that i might have to take combined again?
i dunno.
but if there's a chance i guess i shd be more prepared.
no excuses.
i'll give my all. i'll go all out.
cos i have the passion.

please bear with me.
i'm learning with you all too.
yahh.
and we'll stick together! ((:
hahaha. yupp!

choir without j2s is a totally new experience.
i guess i gotta learn how to stand on my own.
not only like choir wise but musically wise too.
but i definitely thank god for you guys.
i'll be happy enuf to know tt u guys are behind me all the way yah?
HAHAHA.

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andrea: yupp! ij friendships will last. haha. we'll still meet up yah! ((: and i understand. i do. HEEHEE. LOVE YOU LOTS.

second post of the dayy

2007-08-02T22:50:00.001+08:00

second post of the dayy.
HAHA!
i finished my revision for the night!
CLAP CLAP!
did monopoly notes.
and 2 math tutorials!
okay. not that much.
BUT AT LEAST IM STARTING OKAY.
good job jamielee!
study study study!

ANYONE WANTS TO STUDY OUT AT LIKE HEARTLAND PLS MSG.
hahaha.
boredd.

-
choir tmr.
gna end late again.
now tt andrea's left
guess i'll be going home on my own.
how exciting (!!)
YAWNS.

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NA: it's like THERE lah! haha. (: i wanna go out! BABES OUTING! (:

first post

2007-08-02T17:18:00.000+08:00

FIRST POST.
changed blogs after like years. (:
thanks jamie for the blog name.

-
and i need to start studying.
so behind my schedule!

-
eyebrow session this sat cel? (:
HAHAHA..
tell me whether can not okay?

-
i wish it were true.
if only.
what if? (: